Monday 4 October 2010

I'm sorry, I love you!


I don't know how to fix this now,
Wish I'd never broken it,
Don't quite know why I do these things,
Destroying all that could have been,
My only wish is to end your suffering,
Please let me end your pain, mend your broken heart,

I've never allowed myself any happiness,
Never felt I deserved it,
I guess this is why,
I guess this proves I deserve to suffer heartache,
I am and should be hurting,

I killed any chance of being with you,
I pushed you away,
Now you won't come back,
I'd ask you to but I know I don't deserve it,
I know that I'm not worthy,
To walk beside you ever again,
To hold your hand again,
Feel your loving glance,

I'll never forgive myself,
I won't stop punishing myself,
You should be free from all this hurt,
You should be happy in your life,
Loved for all your worth,
Seen for all you are and can be,

I wanted to give you everything,
Allowed myself to let you in,
Don't know why I did this then,
I cannot change the hurt I bring,
I'm sorry and I love you,
I cannot breath without you,
But I must do,
To allow you to get past this,
To help you move on with your life,

I have no right to ask anything of you,
I wouldn't dream of ever questioning you,
Or your motives,
Just promise me one thing,
Promise me you'll find the happiness you deserve,
Never let what happened destroy everything you are,
Don't let it ruin your life,
Or you'll end up just like me,
Lonely for the rest of my days,
Hated for my stupidity,
Resented for my actions,
Hurting myself just to endure the punishment I deserve!

If I never find the right words to say to you,
I hope this poem explains to you,
I hope that you can forgive me,
Even if you cannot be with me,
Please never leave my life,
I cannot live without you,
Cannot eat without you,
Sleep won't come without you by my side,

All the things I want to say are lost inside my mind,
Everything I want to do can never happen,
It's hard but it's worse for you,
Knowing that I couldn't be what you want me too,
I'm dying inside without you,

I look to you for answers,
Hope for your ever warming comfort,
Even though I haven't earned it,
Can't help the way I'm feeling,

I never understood love,
I've never even been in love before,
Before you came along,
Infatuated with the wrong ones,
Obsessed with the lessor men,
Settling for whoever would hurt me the most,
Until you entered my life,

I look for pain because of all I've done,
Crave death because I want to end the nightmare I created,
Your sadness hurts me more than you will ever know,
Even more so because I caused this pain for you,

I never used to be this way,
I was a faithful and a loving girl,
Somehow everything went wrong,
I never thought I'd hurt you,
I didn't want to break you,
But I know I did,

Because of all I've suffered,
I'm speaking of my lifetime,
I hurt others to protect myself,
Even though in doing so I hurt myself,
It's like a form of security,
In case I come off worse in the end,
From another bad relationship,
Been hurt beyond belief in the past,

It doesn't make it right,
Nothing will excuse it,
I'm not trying to justify my actions,
I just want to offer you the answers,
I know that you are seeking,
To help you understand,
I hope you know it's not your fault.

Don't ever ask me to stop caring,
Without you I am nothing,
My life's not even worth living,
If I can never see your captivating face again,
If I will never breath your sweet scent another time,
Even if only for one last time,

I'll love you for always,
Remember you forever,
I'll always try to be there for you,
Help you in any way I can,
Give you everything,
Do anything you request,

You're in my thoughts and I can't change that,
Wouldn't ever want to,
Couldn't be without your image in my head,
You make me what I am,
In the best possible light,
You are everything I need,
All I've ever wanted,
A dream I've always hoped for,
So far gone from me now,

Everything you gave me,
Wish I could give you all that back,
If it takes forever I'll still try,
Just to make things right with you,

Your love is all that helped me,
I'm broken,
And I can't save myself,
I knew you were the only one who could,
You helped me go on living,
Gave me reason to get out of bed,
To think and plan ahead,
You are my future,
Without you time just seems to stand still,

Nothing works without you,
You are my entire world,
I'm drowning here cut off from you and all your kindness,
It's my comeuppance for what I've done,
I won't even try to save myself because I want to suffer,
I want to hurt for all the pain I've ever caused you.

And all that's left now is to tell you,
One last time,
I love you and I'm sorry,
There's nothing without you!

Friday 1 October 2010

After all that's happened,


The fights and madness,


I'm still in love with you,


Can't picture a future without you,




Sometimes people ask me,


What makes you happy,


I cannot explain that,


Your touch, your kiss, your presence consumes me,


When I'm here with you, nothing can harm me,




Monday 27 September 2010

I stand alone!

In every dark night,
I stand alone,
No one understands my pain,
A cry from the heart of insanity,
It will go unheard,
Those who are not yet there, prefer to ignore,
You need not pay me no head,
I am not dangerous enough to be your enemy,

I turn you stab me in the back,
I fall you walk upon me,
What restless resentment you must have for me,
Does my presence offend you so,
Did I break the boundaries,
The force that you bring,
I just wish to be amongst the free,

I walk you attempt to trip me,
I breath you try to suffocate me,
What is your problem with me,
I didn't do a thing,
Is my appearance not quite to your taste,
Does this provoke your hatred of me,
In this life, I will suffer much pain,
I believe this to be my calling,

I am alive you kill me,
I survive you break me,
Endless despisal,
Air of supremacy
Please redirect your evil energies,

I suggest you abide by me,
I am not yet ready to leave this place,
Your effortless abhorrence does not offend me,
You will not get rid of me.

I am here to stay for now,
So get used to my sight,
You will not destroy me,
In the darkness I will wait alone,
I stand on my own...

Friday 17 September 2010

The darkness...

Help, where were you when I fell,
I'm not falling anymore,
You didn't save me,
You were never there,

Home, where is that now,
When you pushed me far away...
Now I am only what you make of me,
Not quite sane but not yet crazy,
But edging nearer by the day...
Does this leave you questioning our fate,

Pain, my only friend,
Its like the knife understands,
It's blood I crave,
How, have I lost myself again,

Mind you're my greatest enemy,
These thoughts keep building,
Up in my head...
And I have done it again,
Destroyed some perfect day with my rage,

Life's not worth living anyway,
I don't need to deal with the pain,
I can't escape my fear today...
I am lost inside my head again,
Bad thoughts creeping up on me always,

Silence and the darkness are all I crave,
Seeking distance from everything real,

Phone stop ringing in my ear,
I won't answer you today,
Why won't you stop calling here...
You don't realise I want to be left...
Alone...

Thursday 16 September 2010

Damsel in distress.


Freedom seems so far from me,
Trapped, I've long lost all hope,
You push me underneath your big feet,
Trample on my dreams,
My dreams lead me far from here,
My fairytale love awaits me,

Broken hearts don't mend SO easily,
And mine is shattered in to pieces...
Your insults bleed me of my sanity,
My strength is long gone,

Pain burns right through me,
I enjoy it, but not this way,

And I'm only young,
So what do I know of love?
I've never felt anything even close...
To true love,
Infatuation is all that I've known,
And true love should be a fairytale,
Not a living hell,
I'm just a damsel in distress,
Won't you come rescue me,
Save me from this hell,
You always feared he would come one day,
My white knight to rescue me,
Carry me far away from here,
Well I guess that time has come...
You're always trying to break me down,
Now you see that I am strong,

I walk around untouched by you,
Your insults go unheard,
My love for him has consumed me,
I feel nothing else,
I finally understand that you needed me,
Far more than I ever needed you,

And he loves me completely,
Even with all my faults,
You always tried to change me,
I was forced to grow up way too quickly,

You stole six years of my life,
And destroyed everything I know,

My true love mends the pain I bleed,
And fixes all you did to me,
He's the one I lean on readily,
I fall in to his arms when you try to shatter me,
You're no longer worthy of my thoughts.

Saturday 11 September 2010

After all this time you think you can still influence me,


Stepping up as if you own me,


Cheap words are meaningless to me,


You don't mean it when you say you love me,


A player kicking game is all I see,






Telling me I'm all you need,


Friday 10 September 2010

Right through me.

You're finally speaking to me,
It's as if you've always known me,
Pretending like we're the best of friends,
Please stop these silly mind games,
You know that I don't like to play this way with you,
Look through me,
Like any other day,
You would normally walk right through me,
I am not invisible to you today?

I'd rather just ignore you,
There's not one single reason I should acknowledge you,
Your feeble existence just annoys me,
It's plain to see you're angry,
Just because I speak my mind,
I don't follow you around,
Like a mindless zombie,

Stay silent,
You're trying to patronise me,
Acting like you understand my pain,
The reason I misbehave like no one cares,


If I try hard enough,
One day, maybe, I will smoke and drink myself to death,
Again you're looking through me,
You say you do, but you don't understand,
Would you even notice?
If I cease to exist,
Would you ever try to find me,
When I run far away from you,
You know that I don't want you,
But you're still holding on to this,

So why are you still holding on to this?
You know that I will not return to you,


You changed me,
For better or for worse now,
This is who I am,
So don't pretend to know me,
I'm not the same young girl you once corrupted,

Walk right through me,


It's fair to say you left me here for dead,
You disturb me,
My peaceful dreams are laid to rest,
And then begins the nightmares,
Like living inside a horror movie,
And you're haunting me in every one,


It's fading,
My link towards the real world is almost dead,
Fantasy remains my freedom from this hell,
You're breaking,
I no longer see you standing there,
Your voice is lower than a whisper to me now,
And as they say ignorance is truly bliss.

Thursday 2 September 2010

Hand in hand.


Do you know where you're going,
Do you care where I'm heading?
The opposite direction,
Did you not see me running,
Far away from this nightmare,
I must have been dreaming,
This couldn't be real,
It's all in my head,
All you said it's just stress taking over,

Leave me alone,
My head is unbalanced,
I can't seem to focus,
Don't know what I'm doing,

You're always complaining,
Nothing is ever the way that you wanted,
We're right back where we started,
Fighting until we're exhausted,

I'm falling I must have failed flying,
I don't know where I'm landing,
But it seems so far from you,
I'm not sure that you want that?

There are no instructions,
Love is unguided,
Right through wrong,
We've just got to ride it...

And when we're done fighting,
Will you be there to fix it,
Don't walk away like you don't want this,
We're just over excited,
I'm not easy to be with,
But you know you like it,
The challenge inspires us,

If love was easy,
Love was simply,
What would be the point in falling,
The greatest fights will bring us closer,
Let's just work together....

Saturday 28 August 2010

Playing mind games.


So lost in confusion,
Nothing to gain, but far too much to lose,
Disorientation in my brain,
This is a game I cannot win,

Your words are like poison,
Running through my veins,
It's pain I cannot bear,

You always seem to have the answers,
I don't understand,
I always search for comfort,
Inside intoxicating dreams,
It's my abuse that pushes you,
Away...

You ripped right through my walls,
I can't rebuild from this,
You have broken through,

I worked my way inside your head,
Just to push you far away... with these mind games,
But still you seem to stay,
Maybe I cause you so much pain,
To try and make this end,

And you hate my drunken rages,
I hurt you with my words,
Still you push right back,
Right back in to me,

I hurt myself to punish you,
And I hurt you just the same,
My wounds will bleed but they will fade,
Your mental scars will never even heal,

You ask me why I chastise you for loving me,
There is no answer I can find,
Maybe I'm just scared...
Afraid of what you bring,

Loving me, was never easy anyway,
Loving you is all I fear.

Wednesday 25 August 2010

My day begins and ends with thoughts of you,


When my sky is grey you brighten the day,


Even in this rain my feelings remain postive,


Thunderstorms

Tuesday 24 August 2010

My pedastal is broken I have fallen off,

Since you walked away from me I cannot hold on,

Falling so hopelessly,

Coping so pathetically,





You can see the truth behind the lies,

And you sense the sadness hidden by a smile,



Even my eyes cannot deny,

You know me better than I even know myself,

I don't understand it, this is crazy,

But even so I will go with it...



And hidden depths remain touched by you,

You feel beyond what I expose,

You know that it is just my war paint you see,

You're breaking through in to the real me,





I am afraid of all you promise me,

The sparkle in your eyes



You understand I speak my mind,

And my words often have another meaning,

Playing mind games,



Friday 20 August 2010

I'll hurt you now,


I'll break you down,


I'm hunting you,


My screams are the only sound,


You fear what
You're always breathing down my neck,

Do you know you suffocate me?

Drowning me with your aggression,

Abusing me with your obsession...

Wednesday 18 August 2010

Intoxication.


You make me cry,
I'm slowly dying on the inside,
There's a darkness in your eyes,
So beautiful a loss you find,

I'll punish myself for loving you,
With nothing inside torture doesn't break through,
Emptiness is all I feel,
A wound you left will never heal,

The wine tastes bitter sweet to me,
It has the potential promise I need to hear,
You deny me the will to live,
For this I drink myself to death,
It is my sorrow you'll regret,
Never hold out thy hand to me,
I will deny thy help to save my soul,
Already lost, far gone, exposed,

Intoxicate my mind tonight,
It is thy drink I crave for now,

You burn me,
I enjoy the pain to some extent,
But I hate your mind games,
You break me,
I spend forever trying to fix these shattered pieces,

And I drink because I crave your taste,
I enjoy your sweet intoxication washing over me,
Your drug like feeling consumes me,
I enjoy the lack of consciousness,
Awareness is not all it seems,
You scare me,
Beaten down by all you bring,
You lie to me,
Behind the beauty of your eyes,
But they're still lies,
You're still not mine!
Would you turn and walk away,


Through all my difficulties,


Maybe it is what I want,


But I need you to stay with me,


Although I'll never tell you this,




My heart is bleeding,


I am not myself,


You bring out the best and worst of me,


But you still seem to try,


Even though I keep pushing you away,


I

Tuesday 17 August 2010

This day is slowly killing me,


Each moment is like another blade,


I breath again death won't take this pain,


No one understands the silence is what I crave,


It's n

Monday 16 August 2010

From my heart...


The darkness clouds my mind,
Day fades to night,
The grey clouds follow me around,
Like they are bound to my depressive mood,

You break my heart with all you say,
Then you put it back together again,
You're so right,
Your words are right,
That's why we fight,

It's all I want,
Yet it is out of reach,
You're too far from me,
Come closer please let me touch you,

Your words are strong,
You have no doubt,
I'm weakened by your confidence,
In everything you do,
I love everything you do,

You never quit,
Too determined,
I'm pushing you away still,
I think you enjoy the difficulties,
I'm not easy to figure out,
That's what you like,
You know I'm right,

You've cracked my wall,
It's tumbling down,
You see the darkness inside,
Don't run and hide,
I'll let you in,
Just be my light,

You're far too strong,
It unnerves me,
I'm not used to your sweetness or your strengh,
You made me hide,
I tried too hard to be what you were looking for,
What are you looking for?
I can be whatever you want,
Am I what you want?

Come quickly please,
Waiting is killing me,
Don't ever turn away,
You know you're all I need,
Your kiss is what I need,
Just love me please,
Be mine just be with me!
You make me cry,
I'm slowly dying on the inside,
Wishing I could see beyond the glimmer of your eyes,
They tell me lies,

Your voice so soft your words so sweet,
Beautiful to me,
Your lips speak of wondrous things,
Your words are lies,



All you promised will never happen,


Your face is like a vision to me,



You make me cry,


I'm slowly dying on the inside,


Wishing I could see beyond the glimmer of your eyes,


They tell me lies,


Don't tell me lies,





I'm falling faster than I can control,


You won't catch me I'm already gone,





You made me smile,


For the first time in years...


I'm still bleeding,


You complicate my life,


With the questions in your mind,



The words you speak are sweet,


Beautiful to me,


Your mouth it tells me lies,


Don't tell me lies...


I'm slowly dying on the inside,



We're floating here,


This moment is pleasant,


Don't break this silence,


Stop thinking now,


I don't need to hear it again,


Like a knife your words cut right through me,


My heart bleeds for you,





You're telling me one thing,


I read between the lines,


Your words are lies,


Just say what is on your mind tonight,





Don't hide behind condescending demeanor,


Tell me what you want,


I'll give it all,


Just tell me the truth.

Sunday 15 August 2010

Seeking pain,


Awaiting the light,


At the end of every tunnel darkness is all I find,


Breaking through the wall you've built up,


You're blocking my love again,




Your presence here weakens me,


You're always right it unnerves me,


I'm afraid of your confidence,


What you bring is uncertainty,




Friday 13 August 2010

Closer to me.


If I hold my tongue,
My silence is only to please you,
Try to keep you sweet so,
Maybe you'll eventually try to see beyond the smoke screen,
That I'm presenting you with,
It's how I hide my feelings,
To keep me from harming me,

Will you smash the walls I've built around myself,
If it's my heart you're seeking,
Maybe that's the way to go,
But just promise me this one thing,
Even when I push you far away with my difficult phases,
Don't ever leave me alone here,
To deal with all the pain...
I create my own distractions,
Look for faults that don't exist,
It's a coping mechanism,
To avoid a broken heart further down the line...

I try to make an effort,
Regardless of the consequences,
Mindlessly climbing obstacles in my path,
It leads me straight back to these complications,
And I don't seem to mind them,
The reward seems to defeat the difficulties.

You're trying to convince me,
Life can be worth living,
When there is just one thing...
That helps to keep me smiling,

You're pushing closer to me,
I turn and run away,
Hiding from the confusion that you bring me,
I'm trying to hurt you to make you go away,
Don't understand what you see,
In someone as crazy as me,
You're moving closer still,
I'll keep pushing you far away with my insanity,
Why don't you leave me,
Not so sure I understand this?

If you decide to pursue this,
Just remember that I'll push back,
To protect my fragile heart from you,
If you can push beyond this,
Maybe we could be...!
Diabolically deceptive,
Emotively unresponsive,


Ignorance would be bliss,


But I cannot escape this mentality,


Stuck in a world of brutality,


You make me feel pathetic,


A broken shell of my old self,


Cowered in a corner,


Crying in to my hands,


The stress is far too much...




Searching for an answer,


It doesn't come in pill form,


Mores the pity still,


I rely upon the feeling that citalopram can give me,


When I'm feeling blue.

The confusion of it all!


All your words are hazy,
I'm trying to take an interest,
But it matters not me,
We come from different backgrounds,
We live in different worlds.

Do we have anything in common?
Is this just a phase,
I don't know or understand you,
But yet I still trust you far more than I can say,

We'll try to come together,
See what happens then,

You tell me that you're falling,
Well I've already fallen,
Trying to pick myself up again,
You're making me insane now,
But I seem to enjoy the pain of never seeing your face,

I try to tell you not to worry,
We will be alright,
Got to roll with all the punches,
Take one day at a time.

Don't over analyse this,
You're creating your own complexities,
I'll not suffocate you,
Won't tell you how to live.

Words have little meaning,
But they mean so much to me,
I'm trying to explain to you,
I doubt you will understand....
When you're not around I'm losing my mind,
I go insane,
Whenever you're talking to me I feel so close to you...

This situation is crazy,
My mind is over thinking,
And all I want to say is I'm so in love with you,
I just want to get so close to you.

Thursday 12 August 2010

I try to tell you not to worry,


We will be alright,


Got to roll with all the punches,


Take one day at a time.





Don't over analyse this,


You're creating your own complexities,




Diabolically deceptive,


Emotively unresponsive,


You make me feel pathetic,


When you treat me like this...

Tuesday 10 August 2010

If I say let's run away together,


Would you come just to be with me,


Far from the evil of this lonely place,


Let's see where the road may end,




If I speak your name when you're not around,


Will you know that I need you now?




Can you read my mind when I need you to,


Monday 9 August 2010

I bleed.


You stole my sparkle once again,
My eyes gaze vacantly now,
I cut myself to take revenge on you,
My thoughts consist of suicidal tendencies,
There's not one answer to this pain,

I fell so far,
You broke my heart,
I tried to run,
Before I could even walk,

Because of you...
My mind is chained,
My heart still breaks,
I tried to leave but was drawn back in to this despondency.

And I realise,
Until the end of my days,
You will forever haunt me,
I will never be free of this tormenting residence,

My living hell,
You drag me down,
I'm fighting for breath,
But I will drown inside these flames...

My abyss awaits,
Do not delay your ever fierce contempt for me,
You asked me once,
And why yes I do bleed!

Thursday 5 August 2010

obstreperous mind...


The voices in my mind are never ending,
No silence, no rest,
A constant racket in head,

No one voice states the same,
Crazy endless stupidity,
Crowded by such a pretty form of insanity,
The screaming begins to deafen me,

You make me laugh, you make me cry,
I smile outside, Inside I die,
I'm always dreaming but I never sleep,
A restless soul with little energy,
You drain me of every positive part of me.

All the whispers come at once,
I don't understand what these voices want,
Why won't you leave my mind today?
You're talking over each other,
And all at once you scream my name,

What would it take for you to get out of my head,
Leave me to scrape back all of my mind that is left.

Love is...?


I love you, I hate you,
I need you, but I don't want to,
Let's leave this all behind,
I'm going out of my mind over you!

My life has been turned upside down,
Don't waste my time again.
I cry, you say it's alright,
We fell, but I am still falling for you,
You see the light,
I'm standing in the darkness that you left me with!

I think about you all the time,
You don't even know I'm alive...
If I tell you I love you, will you leave me tonight?

It's raining in the vision of my mind,
I am alone, In a crowded place,
I see your haunting face,
Tell me what do you see of me?
Because I thought I heard you say you love me too?!

Tuesday 3 August 2010

Bleak existence...


Each lesson I've learnt,
All the knowledge I have gained,
For that I owe you so much,
The pain you brought,
In life it taught me to better protect my trusting heart,

I'm not over it yet,
It's still burns inside,
But the prescription drugs are clearing my mind,

I still feel your breath on the back of my neck,
Hear your voice calling my name,
See your face waiting for me in the rain...
You were my hero once,
You rescued me from living a lie,
But then you once again broke me down,
In to this pitiful life!

Wednesday 16 June 2010

I am only what you made me, a side effect of all that went wrong in this relationship. Each day clouds my mind because of you, and this is broken, but don't try to fix me today. I'm not worth your effortless love, don't cry for me, I'll be happier in this hell burning... anyway... Innocence, was stolen from me so long ago. I can't breath. You didn't see the best of me, just the shattered pieces he left me with...

Wednesday 9 June 2010

Why don't you call me from my dreams?


I've been asleep so many years,


Each day a nightmare,


Constantly running down these stairs,


Trying to find an escape from my reality,





Did my life pass right by me,


While I laid inside my deep sleep

Thursday 3 June 2010

Don't follow the herd.


Voting for a certain political party exists to give the impression that choice and freedom are actually a part of everyday life. The fact is, ALL politicians are corrupt, and all have the exact same agenda. Each party lies in order to gain votes, however it seems that whichever party is destined to next be in power is broadcast more so than the other parties - posted on billboards and such to influence the easily brainwashed with promises these politicians do not intend to keep. But this is merely scratching the surface regarding the problems with corrupt governments.


The mentality of the majority is that the people in power simply cannot be corrupt, they are not capable of doing anything other than what is best, what is right for the country and it's inhabitants. This kind of bizarre ideology apparently rules out any chance of corruption in any government - because according to the 'controlled' masses, people in places of power would not be in that position unless they had the 'peoples' best interest at heart. One point I would like to make is that people with evil intentions, always attempt to apply for positions working in areas where they can satisfy their evil intentions - for example, paedophiles tend to work in jobs close to children - such as schools and priesthood etc. This is common knowledge. So why then is it so difficult for people to believe that a government could be corrupt? My belief is that the mind is very simple in that of the masses - we cannot think behind the smoke screen we are provided, mostly due to daily influences which form our opinions for us such as TV, Billboard advertisements, radio, newspapers etc.


Politicians are basically puppets, used as a scape goat to keep our attention diverted from our true rulers - the evil Zionists. In effect, our view of politicians is that they control what decisions are made in our country - therefore when things start to go wrong, or start to ruin lives who do we instantly blame? The face of the public, the government! In the very same sentence, many people will also say 'But what can we do', so basically people believe their votes count - yet also believe they have no control over any decisions the people they supposedly voted for make? How can such lunacy still be classed as freedom? Yet the brainwashed will always believe they are free because the cage is not a physical one, nor is it in anyway visible - the chains are both financial and mental. The reason people maintain such a passive attitude towards life as it is, is because of lithium in the water. Lithium is prescribed for manic depression - it is said to lesson anger, aggression and agitation, this keeps the masses placid as they're financially ruined, physically and mentally destroyed, poisoned, and enslaved by Zionist puppet masters. It keeps the people from questioning the dozens of new and ludicrous rules made daily, the destruction of language, and it keeps the masses from doing anything to stop this enslavement of mankind.


The idea of the politicians is to provide something to keep our attention, a flashy sign or billboard to focus our minds on the immediate problem, so we may never see what lies beyond this sign. Our Zionist rulers are very intelligent, they can see far beyond what our simple minds can even begin to process. Whereas we may only be able to think a few steps ahead of ourselves, they are constantly thing a hundred steps ahead of themselves. And because our brain capacity is so limited, we assume that every bodies brain capacity is just as limited. We seem only able to see in black and white regarding matters of great importance - we cannot see the many possible hints of colour because our minds cannot grasp such complexities. This is exactly what allows the Zionist puppet masters to have such control over everything. Not only that, but also they have many puppets who are happy to play a small part in the destruction of the world - for a price I dare say, money or maybe just the promise of life while the rest of the disposable humans are being wiped out.

The Zionist plan is to leave at most five hundred million people to live out their lives as slaves, and wipe the rest of the seven thousand million population out. This plan has been in action for some time now, and is already killing people in a slow and painful manner. It starts with poisonous chemicals being forced upon our fragile immune systems from birth, by way of vaccination - and continues with any medication we are prescribed in our lifetime, as well as the harmful chemicals found in food/water, and the sky (chem trails). Such chemicals and metals as - mercury, formaldehyde, aspartame, saccharin, sorbitol, fluoride etc, which cause brain damage, cancer and many other health problems. Here is a link to a list of diseases and symptoms linked to vaccinations:
http://www.know-vaccines.org/parent.html


Do some research to find out hidden dangers in food, water and vaccinations/all pharmacy medications - make sure that any food you consume is free from the above mentioned chemicals. Don't make the mistake of thinking such things would not be approved by the FDA if they were unsafe, or that any level of such things in food or drinks will be low therefore cannot be all that damaging - any level of these chemicals is very damaging, and YES the FDA would approve such dangerous things, and they do!


The biggest problems however are that people are not aware of the Zionist influence, and truly think they're free and have options, as well as the fact that they believe that this physical existence is the only reality. But in actual fact, the physical doesn't exist at all - take atoms for example the smallest form of matter, everything is made up of atoms. Atoms are hollow, which means nothing can be solid, nothing physical can truly exist in anything more than our imagination. Or more to the point, our perception of existence. This physical reality we see before us, is where other life forms meet, where we share the same confused perception of life - this is not natural. We live in this existence now because we were manipulated in to doing so, such an existence is easier to control, through fear, vanity, materialism, laws etc.

The relevance of the above mentioned reality would be that it ties in with what many fail to understand, our brain capacity is so limited, we are basically only able to see on in black and white - in terms of our level of intelligence and perception. Whereas our Zionist rulers can see far beyond what we have been trained to accept as reality, hence why such complex problems are difficult for the masses to grasp, although in some cases they wish to remain ignorant.


To go back to my original point, if we have these rather fruitless choices such as differing (in appearance only of course) political parties and votes, choices of 'set' (controlled) opinions (provided by TV, radio and political correctness), and more tedious choices such as which football team to support, which type of 'set' fashion to follow, which channel of TV propaganda to follow, which controlled personality to take on, or politically correct/incorrect opinion to take on etc. Such ineffectual decisions lead to the misconception of freedom - if the cage is not visible, we will not fight it! But in effect, once you break free from this indoctrination, the cage is visible - you can see the mental and financial cage. The control is apparent in the outrageous bills and taxes, the destruction of countries, the way people unwittingly regurgitate everything they hear, read and see on TV, radio and in newspapers. The chains are financial, the cage is mental!



Upon each election, the persuadable voters in their naivety, tend vote out the previously elected politician, relying on the next greatly pushed puppet to be a better and more trustworthy choice. And even though this repeats itself every election, mostly they remain unaware of this ongoing pattern. Some voters do realise that all politicians are as bad as each other, though they still vote because they are under the impression that their vote counts for something, because the vote represents freedom.


Every time a politician has served his/her purpose, a new party and politician is pushed - through advertising, or 'lying' as it is otherwise known! Every party has a slightly different angle, in destruction that is, one might be particularly bad destruction-wise working slightly faster towards our demise, and another may seem to take take take - then give a little bit back - if you get my meaning. They have different appearances, different ways of handling the position - which is all in the keeping of choices and freedom - the act has to be convincing. And that is all it is, an act! Every face in the eye of the public these days is an actor/actress - they put on a show, even when pretending to be themselves. Everything is scripted, every move planned. This is all part of corrupting your personality/choices - they're shaping who you are and what you think. The idea is to create a set group for each 'set' personality type so that these groups (which are somewhere further up police controlled) can be controlled, these people can be influenced and controlled. Such control allows our Zionist rulers to sway our actions, our decisions... which leads to us further reacting in the way they want and destroying the freedom we once had. Do not fall for the group stereotype ideology. Think for yourself. Be an individual not a sheep!

Monday 10 May 2010

Masochist.


I don't want to listen to the happy songs,
For it might free me from this pain,
Don't you understand this?
I just want to feel this way forever,

I enjoy the urge to kill myself,
I am at peace when I'm hurting in life,

I bite myself to see how long it takes...
For me to taste the hate,
I cut myself just to watch it bleed,
To watch the blood dripping away,

You cannot take this away from me,
Masochistic tendencies have already taken hold,

Degrade me to gratify my soul,
Beat me the pleasure will take control,
I am your pain junkie,
You're my quick fix,

Domination is all you're good for,
I just want you because you can make me cry,

I'm at my best when I'm dying inside,
I'll hold my breath until I pass out,
You can cut me deep with a blunt blade,
All this pain brings me to life,

I don't need your happy pills,
Suffering is the drug I take,

It doesn't hurt, but I still feel each blade,
I never scar, but the wound never heals,
You never play, but you're always there,
You don't understand, but you will still partake.

Blood lust.


I'll drink this red wine,
It's like your blood is touching my lips,
Savour, the flavour of lost innocence,
Don't die too quickly,
Please don't kill this rush,

Your bloody kiss can't resurrect my soul,
You taste just like anger and death,

Do you feel me,
Am I touching you inside,
The darkest corners of your mind,
Evil, a black creature in the night,

I am not of this world,
I stay to taste the bleeding,
Your touch is making me feel so alive again,
The smell of death reminds me I'm still dead inside,

I feel you, as life slips away,
I see you gasping for each breath,

I will leave you to your muddy grave,
Until you wake,
To crave the same taste that stole your last breath.

Awaken to possession.


Forsaken, forgotten,
I am not what you expected me to be,
Anger, contempt for human life,
I am not what you want from me,


So leave me, break me down then let me be,
It's what you do to people like me,

Bleeding, screaming,
But you do not feel or hear me,
Dying, crying,
Why must you go on denying?

Waiting here won't keep you safe from me,
Why is everything you say a lie to me,

Cutting, stabbing,
I drag the blade to try and feel something,
Hurting, breaking,
To feel your neck snap would it cure me?

Angry inside and it's killing me,
You revive my senses,
Then destroy my life even more than to start with.

Awaken, possession,
You already own my soul,
Demons, dimension,
This world was not found as I left it.

Friday 7 May 2010

Psychological destruction.


Do you ever think about what has passed?
Do you live each day with the same regrets,
Sometimes I could kick myself for the choices I've made,
I wake up and relive it each day,

Was there something I missed along the way,
A path I was destined to take?

Every time I get these thoughts it drives me insane,
Until an answer is sought,
Psychological destruction,
Always seeking long forgotten knowledge.

And it's driving me insane,
Can't see past today,
Wake to find my life is still a mess,

Do you ever wonder what could have been?
Think about what we'll never see,
I live inside my dreams,
My constant escape from a sad reality,

I feel almost as if life is passing me by,
I can't hold on to this crazy ride,
Did I lose my way somewhere along the way?
Where am I meant to be?
Is this life all it could be?

And if I asked you what we missed,
What would your response be?
Please don't run, I'm not looking for something,
I only seek an answer to end my misery.

Thursday 6 May 2010

Screaming, I cry out for my sanity,


Will these shrieks take away my tears,


Therapeutic reaction to my problems,


But is there anything to this method?




Punching walls, tearing clothes,


Breaking all you own,


Smashing up all you know,




Set fire to your life,


The flames are dancing like evil demons in my mind,


Wednesday 5 May 2010

Man of my dreams...


All the Empty words I've always spoken,
Depressing thoughts I'm always thinking,
And the good days seem to go so quickly,
I'd rather stay inside my fantasy.

You're waiting inside the walls of my mind,
If you're not real why can I feel this?
My deep dreams are all I need,
Let me fall in to a dead sleep,

Let me be with you forever,
I don't want to wake up to reality,
When it seems so much less worth the effort,
You're making me feel so in love with you,
When you're breathing on my skin,
Stroking every inch of me,

And the cold night never freezes me,
Your warmth will keep me safe from its icy breeze,
Pure simplicity, nothing too extreme,
But I know that you will always be...
There to greet me every single dream.
Perfection in every fantasy,
Meet the man of my sweet dreams,

He will always carry me... far away,
Where the golden sunlight blends with the night sky,
And the moon dances on the sea,
Where rain tastes like little drops of honey,
And the mermaids sing angelic harmonies...

Please let me never wake from my wonderful dreams.
I miss you when I'm not sleeping,
Please let this long day soon end.

Broken romance.


A black cloud greets my window everyday,
Damp depression sleeps but never wakes,
I just want to be with you,
But you treat me like a fool,

I'll relentlessly follow you...
Torturing my soul,
Crying all alone,
Was it worth all the pain?
When everyday is exactly the same as yesterday.

The promises you break,
And lies are all you say,
Empty compliments you gave,
Did you never stop to think about me,
Was our love just a mistake?

I can't hate you still,
Even after all you put me through,
Foolish when it comes to you,

Don't let me wait,
Tell me who she is,
I can live life without you,
And I'd rather know the truth.

Saturday 17 April 2010

You say I never break no matter what fate brings,


But I'm not made of stone I'm fragile it seems,


I keep my head

Thursday 15 April 2010

The best way to lose weight.


With today's ever growing weight problem, due to the amount of take aways, American influences, chocolate, processed foods etc, many of us struggle to either know what to eat to be healthy, or to lose weight/keep weight off. So many people try dieting, counting calories, take diet supplements, eat supposed low fat options (of processed foods), starve themselves etc, this is the wrong way to try and lose weight, if anything this will destroy the metabolism. I have decided to write an article to help people who are truly struggling to lose weight or eat healthily because of the many conflicting stories about what is good and what is bad. Before I start listing good and bad foods, I would like to let everyone know that I don't advertise or sell/make any money from any products or foods I recommend, the products/foods I recommend are ones that I myself consume and have had great benefits from.


List of bad foods to be avoided:



  • Sugar, sugary foods including: pasta sauces, all substitue sauces (or lazy sauces as I call them), low fat processed (bought in microwavable meals/oven cook meals), sugar free products (which contain Aspartame, sorbitol, saccarin etc all artificial sweeteners - they claim to be a healthier option yet they stop the body from burning fat).


  • Bread, regardless of whether it is white or brown.


  • Pasta, white brown etc it is all bad if you want to lose weight (it's very starchy and full of bad carbohydrates)


  • Health cereals, they contain sugar/artificial sweeteners and salt, they're not healthy and will stop the fat burning process - slowing the metabolism down greatly.


  • Margerine, even low fat options are bad because of the hydrogenated oil in them.


  • Hydrogenated oils, vegetable oil, sunflower oil etc all bad oils. Also check foods to see whether they contain or are cooked in hydrogenated oils.


  • Normal potatoes, they're starchy, bad carbohydrates.


  • Health yogurts, which contain a type of fructose that is not good for healthy living and weightloss.


  • Houmous, which is very high in fat even if you opt for the low fat options.



  • Rice, white and brown (although there are types of rice that are healthy).



  • Take away foods, even if it's a healthy option it may still contain MSG - which causes significant weight gain. MSG can also be found in crisps, bombay mixes etc (even the healthy options, it is a dangerous chemical and is the main cause for weight gain in countries that allow its use).



  • Cheese, this is definitely something you need to either cut out or cut down on.



  • Alcohol, which is full of sugar or artficial sweeteners.





Good foods:



  • All fruits.

  • All vegetables.

  • Sweet potatoes - a healthy and tasty alternative to normal potatoes.

  • Millet and Quinoa rice (from health food shops).

  • Real butter, which is natural and much more heathly than margerine (it is a good carbohydrate).

  • Coconut oil, olive oil - these are not hydrogenated and are very healthy.

  • Avocado's.

  • Raw nuts, these are the good kind of fats/carbs that you can eat, snack on different types of nuts every day (don't over eat them though it is merely an inbetween meals snack so small portions).


Another important thing is to eat several small meals a day, rather than two or three big meals a day, you should try and eat between four and six meals a day - four being the very least. Eating more often but small portions gives the metabolism a challenge, it speeds it up. I will give you a look at what little meals are worth eating to help keep you energised.



Breakfasts:



Toast, with a small spreading of butter (just a couple of slices should suffice).



Porridge, made with milk (no sugar), add some fruit like bananas, strawberries, rubarb (cook the rubarb seperately then add it to the porridge when serving), berries, etc etc. Also buy flax seeds (from health food shop, they come in packs with different extras for flavour). Nuts can also be added to porridge.



Cereals, stay away from supposed health cereals, and anything with added sugar or added artificial sweeteners. Try cereals in health food shops.




Before dinner snacks:



Fruit, a single banana can be very filling. But with less filling fruits two pieces is fine, or with things like grapes and berries a small portion (whatever suits you, but remember it's a snack not a meal).



Nuts, small portion.



Ryvita, with cottage cheese, greek yogurt, soured cream, cucumber and chive dip (very easy to make yourself, just grate the cucumber slice the chives - and mix all the ingredients together, it makes a lovely dip), any topping you want really provided it's healthy and not processed.




Dinner:



Rice, add some vegetables and chilli powder or other spices for flavour and it makes a healthy meal.


Jacket potato with salad, with the dip mentioned above, or cottage cheese, etc anything healthy.


Spanish roasted potato's with fiery sauce.


Chilli.


Vegetable soups.



Snacks:


Fruit.


Vegetables.


Ryvita with healthy toppings.


Toast with butter. Etc light snacks.



From the above you should be able to see what sort of meals you can have. I hope this is helpful. If you need any more ideas or any recipes for home made healthy meals please leave a comment at the end of this article. I am a vegetarian so I can mainly offer vegetarian options, but you can always add meat to anything if you want, provided it is lean meat.

Hidden identity, a new woman stands before you all,


War paint allows me to lie,


Expressions are meaningless when it's not really ours,






I can paint a smile, you will think that it's mine,


It keeps me strong, awaiting each fight,


The screaming voice in a crowd is never heard,


The crying child is left no one cares,


Over throwing your opinion, to quieten mine,


Is this how it is, of are you

Thursday 18 March 2010

The destruction of innocent minds.












Subliminal messages although somewhat mistakenly overlooked, or even passed off as sheer lunacy or coincidence, are ever becoming more widely noticed. The meaning behind these messages is mostly realised by people who already had some understanding of why pop music videos are used. On a conscious level we might notice some of the obvious messages being sent out, mostly the observable sexual imagery. It takes a much closer look at and understanding of subliminal messages, in order to see what the whole message, or less obvious image is telling the mind on a subconscious level.


Music videos by the likes of lady GaGa and other modern pop stars, consist mostly of symbolism and subliminal messages. Rihanna, is also known to do music videos with such content, or course because she is black this protects the actual video from criticism, since small minded people will claim that the criticism is a race related thing - rather than what it actually is which is exposing the messages that we are only supposed to receive on a subconscious level. When we do receive these messages as they are intended, we behave the way these messages suggest. We are susceptible to such influences because our brain responds to words and images on many levels, what is not readily seen by our eyes our brains processes and stores, yet we are unaware of this even though it causes our thoughts to imitate what we have seen.



The song "Bad romance" by Lady"boy" GaGa, is absolutely full of hidden influences. I will begin by pointing out the hidden meanings in the video, then I will move on to the lyrics. The opening of this music video starts with twenty three people (including Lady GaGa), and a dog - in most if not all videos by lady GaGa there is at least one dog shown, representing Cerberus hound of hell. Of the twenty three people in the opening image, twelve are dressed in black, ten in white and Lady GaGa is in gold - white and black symbolise a chess board as found in the temples of freemasonry, the ceiling and floor of this image are square tiles which also represents a chess board. On the left of this image, there is a bath with two women inside it, one man sat on the tub with his legs inside and two men leaning on the bath one of women's legs is stretched across the man sat on the tubs lap this woman is sat behind another woman, this is a sexual image representing an orgy. The whole lay out of the image is exposing an orgy, with more men than women. In the middle of the picture, Lady GaGa is sat in a chair which is representing a throne, at both sides of the chair is a woman in the position of the masonic lion statues which are placed one opposite the other on buildings (which can be found on many masonic buildings, or Zionist owned business buildings), this represents sun worship.


Twelve seconds in to this video, Lady GaGa exposes mesh on her fingernails, which is symbolic of a web - which is used in the protocols in the Zionist capture of the planet.


In the very next image, the room is reminiscent of a prison cell (or at least what prison cells used to be like). The first noticeable thing in this scene of the video is the vodka bottles, underneath the neck of the bottle is an upside down pyramid which has four lines across it, one of them separating the cap stone from the pyramid. There is an eye shape inside the pyramid, representing the all seeing eye of the devil, and the word lex is written inside the eye - which is very similar to lux which means light coming from Sirius the dog star which is itself representative of Isis, Osiris and Horus which is the Illuminati trinity (the gods of our hidden rulers) an interesting choice of a bottle for such a video - it makes a bold statement of ownership by the Illuminati. Next a sign comes up with the words "bath haus of GaGa" - bath houses are known as places for homosexuals to have orgies. The dancers in the video open the white boxes they are in (there are seven boxes, one has the word monster and a cross on it,) and start to make their way out, these boxes very closely resemble coffins - skull and bones (Illuminati secret society based in Yale) practice masturbation in coffins. They start to slither out much like serpents - every person coming out of these coffins has a white PVC hat on (as well as being dressed in a white pvc outfit), this hat covers the eyes but not the mouth, at the top the pvc material is formed in to spikes - the dancers begin to move around like Zombies in a horror movie and then begin to clap as if to applaud their blindness, lady GaGa is in the bath fully clothed at this point which in itself is rather odd. We see lady GaGa standing in front of the mirror after the bath scene, posing in an odd way dressed in black wearing a hat very similar to that of the dancers in the other scene - I believe these hats may symbolise ownership, since the colours are well known Illuminati colours, lady GaGa's hat does not cover the eyes which could suggest she is aware of the ownership instead of blind to it like the dancers appear to be. While the dancers continue a very odd dance which reminds me somewhat of Michael Jackson's thriller video - almost inviting evil, one of the dancers is shown sat on the floor the first time she appears to be reverting back in on herself, next she is shown from behind, her hand reaches round towards her bottom almost inviting sodomy. Again we are shown Lady GaGa in front of the mirror she slides her hand up her leg and down in to her crotch - which is masturbation, then she lifts her dress up slightly flashing herself in the mirror. When lady GaGa is shown next in the bath again she appears to have rather large pupils and seems to be on drugs or possessed by something evil - the dancer on the floor appears rather lost and disturbed when she is next shown, almost as if she has lost something on the floor. In the bath scenes, lady GaGa makes weird movements with the end joints of her fingers on one hand - she also shows herself making a gun shape with her fingers, exposing a tattoo which is considered to be the hippie sign for peace, really it is the old death rune, she is also wearing earrings which look like pyramids and seem to have a wire dangling from them as if they are earphones. All the while the dancers continue dances which seem to be a rip off of Michael Jackson's thriller video, they appear to be struggling to see and feel their way around - almost like a battle to cure their blindness, the movements clearly resemble blindness as well as showing stupidity - this symbolises being blind to the truth, stumbling on in a trance like state kept in the dark. It great exposes sheeple, this is basically showing how they see the people they have brainwashed - they see them as blind sheep who will remain blind. Lady GaGa is dragged from the bath and seems to be struggling as if frightened - the dancers when shown next have their arms stretched out and just move their hips, it is as if they are pushing lady GaGa symbolically. The two women who dragged lady GaGa from the bath seem to be dressed almost like nurses they sit her on the edge of the bath and then force a drink down her throat - which lady GaGa dribbles down her chin, which is a sexual reference referring to oral sex and ejaculation in the mouth - which she is then forced to swallow.

Lady GaGa is next shown being pulled about by the dancers who are tearing at her clothes, preparing her for exposure for men's pleasure she is wearing very little when the coat is pulled off of her body (she also appears to be struggling when next shown in the bath - as if fighting off the people who want to indecently expose her) - which is giving teenagers and children that being dressed in a degrading and slutty manner to benefit men is OK and that there is no shame in such disgusting behaviour, it is basically turning women in to mere sex objects for the benefit of men and teaching children that they should behave this way. Which is the Zionist dream, pornography was created by Zionist Jews - this is another way of degrading women and making them nothing more than a hole in the eyes of men - this has been so much that now porn is inescapable, it is in magazines like just17, which is mostly read by much younger teenagers and children who wish to feel older - this kind of imagery is mimicked by children who wish to seem more grown up and so act and dress like prostitutes. This is how children become sexualised, children are even portrayed this way in films, so that they become objects of lust for men - leading to paedophilia. The whole school girl uniform fantasy was also created by the Zionist's as a way of tempting men to lust after children. This explains the great rise in paedophilia cases of young rape cases which are basically paedophilia cases but classed differently by a ridiculous law.

The women dancers who ripped the clothes from lady GaGa seem very pleased with themselves after they have uncovered her - they are glancing at the men who are sat observing the whole thing, lady GaGa has now been turned in to a mere sex object and her morality been destroyed by these women. Despite this, lady GaGa at first tries to cover herself as if she does not want to be degraded and ogled by men - this scene is displaying an orgy again. Of the men that are shown, three seem to be wearing muzzles - symbolising that men are dogs and driven only by lust humping everything in site. Three men are showing visible tattoos, the middle man has a trident tattoo on one arm, and what appears to be a skull on the other arm, he also has death tattooed on his right shoulder - the man sat to his right has what looks like an ecto skeleton on his arm, and the man on left of the middle man has a very odd tattoo as well, which I struggled to make out as I progress through this video I may be able to work out what it is meant to be, hopefully. One of the men next shown has what looks like the chin part of a roman helmet strapped to his face, which I believe could symbolise controlled speech (political correctness) since it appears to almost be a kind of gag keeping him from speaking. This man has a tattoo on his neck which seems like a face, with hearts where the eyes should be, where the nose should be what looks similar to a cross creeps up above where the hearts are, but it also seems at the same time like rams horns making the cross - it is a very demonic looking tattoo.


Lady GaGa is next seen with her hand on her breasts and one hand in between her legs like she is masturbating, she is being carried by the other women in the scene. After this she is shown naked at either side of her are walls, in front of her is what looks like a cage keeping her inside these walls. It goes back to the previous scene where she is lowered to a standing position and begins to dance for the men - which is basically strip club dancing, giving children the impression that this is how to get men to like you, it also teaches children to be sex objects again and to be slags. The men sit watching the dancing which is for their entertainment - this is possibly to spur children on in to such demeaning jobs, Zionists love the idea of women and men being mere sex objects, obsessed with sex and having no standards just sleeping with anything in site - this is why they are destroying each generation more and more. The naked scene comes on again, this time Lady GaGa is leaning forward and her back bones stick out like that of a Ceratosaurus (which is basically a lizard, yes I am referring to David Ickes idea of the reptilian bloodline - I believe anything to be a possibility in this lifetime) this scene shows lady GaGa looking malnourished and diseased - the bone structure is not at all normal, it would take great tampering of the image or severe anorexia for such obvious sticking out of the bone, and even then this would mean she was close to dying - plus there would be many more bones sticking out, not just the spine. In the next dance scene (going back to the where the women are being watched by men), lady GaGa is thrown to the floor at the feet of the men being watched closely by these men - she stands up, lifts her leg and strokes in between her legs - which is showing masturbation for the men's pleasure, which again is teaching little girls to degrade themselves for the pleasure of men - it is telling little girls to touch themselves on a subconscious level - this kind of message can lead children in to early and obsessive masturbation. At the same time the leg movement is symbolic of a woman climbing on top of a man for sex and positioning his penis inside her - which is giving the message that children should be off having sex, this kind of imagery teaches promiscuity.



The next few dance moves are mostly hand gestures with slight hip movements - one such hand movement clearly shows the "wanking" hand gesture by all of the women dancers. Lady GaGa is seen naked again this time doing what seems to be a flicking movement - when you actually stop this at the precise moment she is about to flick, you see that she is making an eye with her finger (masonic symbol), and also making the shape of three sixes with her fingers - which is how the mind will process the image. Again in this scene she looks very reptilian with the way her back bone is sticking out in the way of spines. The next part of the dance shown is lady GaGa with her fingers touching making a with child movement by making out the shape of a pregnant belly with her arms. Which is basically telling these young children that the music is aimed at to get pregnant young (hence the teenage mum problem). In these scenes with the dancers, a fair few drinks of vodka (the same vodka bottles which were mentioned earlier) are poured out by the men watching the dancers - this is giving the message to drink heavily - alcohol is actually more dangerous and addictive than illegal drugs, as well as it dulling the senses and destroying brain cells. Lady GaGa is next seen crawling on her knees towards the men - teaching children to be slaves, not only slaves to the Zionist agenda, but also sex slaves. Lady GaGa climbs on top of of one of the men - this message again is sex she is riding him - teaching children again to have promiscuous sex - during this part she is seen making humping movements, then seen naked again moving her bottom as if having sex. A cat hisses at Lady GaGa while she is humping this man - the cat represents Bast (Bastet) Egyptian Goddess of the Rising Sun. The 'Cat Goddess'. And of course sun worship ties in with the Illuminati. The cat is a sphynx cat - which is also Egyptian again.



One of men pushes a button, then three laptop screens are shown (each laptop has a 6 on the back of it- there are three sixes - the devils number) where the men are bidding basically they are buying her, she is a prostitute selling her body to these men. Just before where the amount being bid is there is a letter P with a line going through just under the D shape of the letter - this is not a type of currency, it means prostitution - lady GaGa prostitution bid. This is telling children several messages, one that the body is not worth anything, it is merely for sexual pleasure, two that there is nothing wrong with prostitution, three that pornography is fine and being a porn star is fine - which it isn't because it degrades women and turns men in sex obsessed lust driven objects - and four it tells children that by using sex to make money they can become rich - it devalues love making, marriage and women. It also glorifies materialism over morals and respect for oneself.


Of the numbers shown on the bidding for lady GaGa I used the method for numerology and looked up the meanings of each number, so that I could ascertain as to whether they had any significance at all. Firstly the numbers shown are: 943 616 - 965 818 - 976 141 - and lady GaGa sells at 1000,000. I took the first set of numbers and added each single number together which came to 29 - then I added 2 + 9 which comes to 11, the numerological meaning behind this is:

"The 11 is known as the psychics number, it's the most intuitive of all numbers and it represents illumination and deep insight" - Notice Illumination = Illuminati.

"It acts as a channel for information between the higher and the lower." - The higher and the lower meaning classes of people (in the case of what the Zionist reasoning behind this numerology usage is) "a channel for information" - which means the brain washing we are subjected to, basically put together it means we are the lower class, beneath the Zionists, their slaves - and the people involved in spreading their lies and inflicting these brainwashing rituals upon us are the channel for information - from the Zionists, to us.



The next lot of numbers came to 37 - 3 + 7 = 10 For Pythagoras, 10 was the symbol of the universe and it also expressed the whole of human knowledge. Represent the Creator and the creation, 3 + 7, the Trinity resting in the expressed universe. Meaning that the creators are the Zionists and we are the creation - because they have destroyed what used to be our culture, and created a new one, along with inflicting a destructive way of thinking which is not our own. "It also expressed the whole of human knowledge" - we know only what we are told, through subliminal messages, media influences and lies the government are paid to tell us - Lady GaGa represents what knowledge we are fed through the subliminal messages, or more how our thoughts are manipulated in to thinking the way our Zionist rulers want us to. "The trinity resting in the expressed universe" - the trinity = Illuminati, resting in the expressed universe could mean the ideology they have created for us which is considered the logic of the universe (earth is what the real meaning is behind this, since earth is all we know to have been manipulated). It could also point to the fact that they do not follow what we are forced and brain washed in to following - they rest, we serve. "For the Mayans, it represents the end of a cycle and the beginning of another. The ten was regarded as being the number of the life and the death." Which could tie in to two things really, firstly the NWO as the beginning of a new cycle, secondly 2012, when the end of the world is predicted - interestingly by the Mayans. According to H.- P. Blavatsky, the 1 followed by 0 indicates the column and the circle, meaning the principle of the female and male, and this symbol would refer to the Androgyny nature and also to Jehovah, being at the same time male and female. Jehovah or yhwh - is the Jewish god, which may also be tied in with Zionists because they claim to be Jews, but the are not by race, only by religion.



The next lot of numbers when added came to 28 - 2 + 8 = 10. - Since 10 has already been discussed I do not need to mention it again.


Incidentally, Lady GaGa comes to the number 13 in numerology - 13 represents "all or nothing" through transformation pertaining to degeneration or regeneration. Symbolic death and rebirth is strongly associated to 13. An example of the representative power of the number 13 is transitioning from modest means to vast wealth 13 is considered a "Karmic Debt Number," - "All or nothing", which could represent how unless these pop stars who sell their souls to the Zionist devils willingly sacrifice their souls to such depravity, they will never get famous and their songs will never reach the charts, they must fully submit to Zionism. "Degeneration" - which could mean the deterioration of the Lady GaGa, also the part she plays in cause the degeneration of humanity. "symbolic death and rebirth" - the old person dying out, and being replaced by the Zionists tool, also the death of our way of life and moral standing - the rebirth of our degrading existence. "Transitioning from modest means to vast wealth" - the selling of oneself/the soul to the devil (Zionism) for financial gain. "Karmeric debt number" - the debt Lady GaGa pays by corrupting the generations with her music and videos, it is the price she pays for selling herself in order to get famous.






When I was looking up Jewish numerology, I found the symbolism of the number 13 - "For the cabalist, the number 13 is the meaning of the Snake, the dragon, Satan and the murderer." Which I found interesting, since the snake represents the leading astray of Adam and Eve. Obviously the dragon represents reptilian blood lines, and Satan well clearly it is the mark of what our Zionist elite worship. It clearly shows why such an odd name was picked.


Going back to the dance moves, Lady Gaga is next dancing with the other (supposed women, although it is questionable whether they are women or men in drag), the next few dances moves are mostly hand gestures (like the masturbation of a male) with the occassional humping gesture towards the men who are watching - basically whether these dancers are male or female - the message is to fancy the masculine appearance - which could explain the rise in homosexual/bisexual activity?!


The next bit that stood out to me the most is when Lady Gaga is seen in black underwear surrounded by clear diamonds floating in the air, as well as a room full of men sat around her, this is suggestive of group sex, and what is known as a 'spit-roast' - these diamonds represent male ejaculation being released on Lady Gaga. This is sending the message that group sex, and promiscuity in general are normal acts. Lady Gaga is now wearing a metal 'roman' style helmet (or at least the front face covering part of) - which again represents a muzzle - control.


There are two theories about what the metal ring costume represents, one that the rings represents other dimensions. And the other that it could represent the ring of saturn - which seems plausible (upon first sight of this image) when the significance of Saturn is looked up -


"Saturn, so active in the cosmic changes, was regarded by all mankind as the supreme god. Seneca says that Epigenes, who studied astronomy among the Chaldeans, “estimates that the planet Saturn exerts the greatest influence upon all the movements of celestial bodies.” (1)

On becoming a nova, it ejected filaments in all directions and the solar system became illuminated as if by a hundred suns. It subsided rather quickly and retreated into far-away regions."

Illumination represents the illuminati obviously, and the hundred suns is the sun worship.
Also, Lady Gaga's outfit seems somewhat robotic - which is basically the Zionist dream, to turn us in to mindless, emotionless, soul less slave robots that they can control. Two of the rings are almost inline with Lady Gaga's stomach next (Whereas the others were/are inline with her head), this is similar to what an atom looks like, and reminiscent of a portal to another dimension (as the rings keep separating), Lady Gaga places her hand out, as if testing a new dimension before she fully allows herself to step in to it. A pyramid tattoo is clearly visible on her arm, it probably even has the correct amount of stones (for it to be completely significant to Zionism - 13).


The next outfit we see Lady Gaga in is rather 'reptile' like, consisting of a scaley green and yellow suit. Lady Gaga makes a hand gesture which almost looks like the number six (which is shown three times). The body pose during this is almost like the Baphomet (church of Satan). Lady Gaga's sunglasses (why would she wear these indoors anyway? - Probably because it is a statement of sun worship), seem to come out to a point - like lizard eyes. The style of Lady Gaga's hair (during this reptile scene) is reminiscent of a desert horned lizard's spikes sticking out to the side and back of the head.


We again see Lady Gaga in the bath scene, this time with her hands around her throat, but arms extended upwards and outwards, which it seems rather odd to be throttling oneself. Lady Gaga appears in the fur (and full body including head) polar bear outfit. She is white room walking towards two rams heads on the wall - which is the traditional sign of the Devil. In this room there is a bed, on it a man is sat (the man who bid the highest for her earlier on the computer screens), with bedside tables (either side of the bed), with a lamp on each. The bed frame is shaped like a pyramid with the steps going up, and at the top the eye of Horus - this is faint but the subconscious mind would easily see it. It was actually by chance I came across, I was examining the man and bed scene and noticed the background. The lamps at either side represent the pillars of light - this scene is very masonic indeed. Lady Gag is shown with her sunglasses on, which show a reflection of everything just mentioned^^^ (again sunglasses indoors? - Also have you noticed that all the sunglasses she wears make her nose in to the shape of a pyramid with the cap stone missing - this is deliberate, remember these sunglasses are designed for her).



The man is wearing his muzzle still and unbuttons his shirt - he earlier paid for Lady Gaga's services (prostitution). Lady Gaga and her masculine dancers are in red for their next costume scene, lying on the floor, all positioned in the base of a pyramid (remember these scenes are deliberately laid out, it is not coincidence, every detail is thought out and planned). Lady Gaga strokes herself down her bust area in to her groin area (masturbation), She makes head movements almost like she is being humped hard. During this dance scene she makes very many sexually suggestive dance moves. When Lady Gaga is shown with very little make up on, she seems to be jerking her body somewhat, as if masturbating. She is then shown taking off her fur coat. When next seen in her reptile outfit, her shadow looks almost like an Egytian Pharaoh - if you look properly you can see it even seems to have a beard, whereas Lady Gaga does not, so this picture was obviously edited). Also, behind the shadow of Lady Gaga is another shadow, which looks almost like a demon (or like one of those Gargoyle statues seen on some buildings) creeping up behind her.



The room with the man and Lady Gaga (prostitute scene) is suddenly on fire, which starts behind the bed (representing the fire of hell - from an evil and sinful act). Lady Gaga in red is making almost robotic dance moves now along with her masculine dancers. Now Lady Gaga is shown in front of the flames. The (red suited) dance scenes continue to be somewhat robotic and look almost like she is having an epileptic fit with the strange hand and body movements. The bed is shown ablaze, then Lady Gaga poses in front of the burning bed - the fire behind her is a pyramid (of course), and her pose is definitely deliberate, but I'm not exactly sure what it represents yet. In red again Lady Gaga makes a pyramid shape over her eye with her fingers, which is her trademark really - it is showing ownership - the Zionist ownership of her soul. The man is now dead, burnt alive for his sins - Lady Gaga lays next to his corpse, with a bra that sparks - illumination. She is smoking a cigerrette - which in films is seen as a form of release after sexual activity has taken place, insinuating she has sold herself as a prostitute to the man for his sexual pleasure. This could be seen as a message to sell ones body through prostitution, and also pornography - both are degrading and wrong.



If you consider again, who are these songs and videos aimed at? Children! These songs and videos are shaping the opinions and future actions of each generation of children - hence why promiscuity is popular and common in todays younger generations.


Lyrics of the song 'Bad romance'.

This is so I can show the hidden meaning in what you may just consider odd wording, but it is never coincidence, it is always deliberate. Our brain filters our conception of reality, principally by means of the interpretation of the three archetypes: Music, words and images. These people know this, they use it to manipulate the masses with subliminal messages.


Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Rah rah ah-ah-ah! - Ra, is the Egytian sun God, (merged with Horus)
Ro mah ro-mah-mah

- Romah - could be 'roam', as in to roam, (without direction, aimless wondering, roamers - 'gypsies').


Gaga Ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Rah rah ah-ah-ah!
Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your ugly

- When Lady Gaga sings this she is looking in the mirror, she is basically saying she wants you to feel inferior 'ugly' - which leads to vanity, obsession with appearances.


I want your disease
- Why would she want a disease? The disease represents illness (obviously, but inflicted like the illnesses caused by the poisonous toxins we daily have forced upon us, through food, water, medication etc). It also means your mental illness - the destruction of your mind.


I want your everything
As long as it’s free
- She wants everything - if it's free - doesn't that sound like the 'doley scrounger' mentality, 'I want everything for free'. It's telling people to take take take. To rely on a fragile benefits system.


I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
- She wants you to idolise her, to love her - because then her words and actions can affect you even more. Which means you are more open to the suggestive nature of her songs. The magic of symbolism (in Zionist belief) relies on your submission to it.


I want your drama
The touch of your hand
- When she sings this, she strokes her hand down inbetween her leg and lifts her dress, exposing private area in front of the mirror - this is a sexual suggestion.


I want you leathe-studded kiss in the sand
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love

You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
- Submissive to her Zionist leaders - she relies on them for fame.
I want it bad
Your bad romance

I want your loving
And I want your revenge
- Sex. And revenge - a retaliation to something,


You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!)
I want your loving
All your love is revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
- All your love is revenge? Almost as if the sexual act taking place is a retaliation to something?

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah rah ah-ah-ah!
Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your horror
I want your design
- Lady Gaga wants you at your worst - she wants you to be illiterate, stupid and evil, mere objects of lust and obsession (With the material objects). She wants you to be a certain way 'a design' - which has been planned out for you by way of fashion, magazines, music videos and TV etc.

‘Cause you’re a criminal
As long as your mine
- You're a criminal, as long as 'your' (should be you're, but that was how the lyrics were written) mine? She is expressing her hold over you here, she controls 'you' - you're 'hers'. An object that she shapes. She wants you to be a criminal, to be nothing more than a lazy parasite.

I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love, uhh

I want your psycho
Your vertigo stick
- Not only does this not make sense, but it is also a message for you to suffer from psychosis. And vertigo stick - is obviously a penis, vertigo implies 'infected', therefore she wants sex and is promoting promiscuity, as well as telling you that STDs are no big deal, don't worry about it, it's only an STD, have sex never mind. Basically that is the message.

Want you in my room
When your baby is sick
- Again, not only do the lyrics not make sense or have any purpose (in the way that they are to the conscious mind stating nothing at all), but obviously again sex is being mentioned. The mention of a 'baby' seems quite odd. This could be a mention of an actual baby, which would seem very sick to be honest - or it could be a mention of a partner, infidelity.



I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love

You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
(‘Cause I’m a freak bitch, baby!)
I want it bad
Your bad romance
- She is saying she is desperate for sex - teaching people to become slaves to their lusts, nothing more than mere sex objects and materialistic ones at that!



I want your loving
And I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!)
I want your loving
All your love is revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah rah ah-ah-ah!
Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Work-work fashion baby
Work it
move that bitch crazy
Work-work fashion baby
Work it
move that bitch crazy
Work-work fashion baby
Work it
move that bitch crazy
Work-work fashion baby
Work it
I’m a freak bitch baby
- Here she is telling you to work - in other words to be a slave, and she mentions fashion which she also wishes you to be a slave to.


I want your love
And I want your revenge
I want your love
I don’t wanna be friends
- Here is an obvious mention of a 'one night stand', she doesn't want anything more than sex basically (telling you that sex means nothing, and relationships mean nothing) - she doesn't want to think of her sexual conquests as 'people', just as objects of her desire -which is how she wants you to see people also.


J'veux ton amour
Et je veux ton revenge
J'veux ton amour
I don't wanna be friends

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
(I don't wanna be friends)
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

(I don't wanna be friends)
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
(Want your bad romance)
Caught in a bad romance
(Want your bad romance)

I want your loving
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!)
I want your loving
All your love is revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
(Want your bad romance)
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
(Want your bad romance)
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
(Want your bad romance)
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah rah ah-ah-ah!
Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance




Obviously, these lyrics and images are planned out by the Zionist leaders. Lady Gaga is a mere tool for delivering the messages, but she still is playing her part in the destruction of young impressionable minds nonetheless. Most of the 'big' singers used to push subliminal messages, started out as trusted figures (when the elite actually bothered to cover their tracks, they are obviously over confident these days), they claimed to be religious, wrote seemingly innocent songs etc etc. And now that they're sending these messages, they have already gained parental trust, therefore no one expects them to be destroying young minds, this allows the songs and images to cause the mental destruction of each generation.

I will be doing a youtube video on this subject at some point, I was going to wait until after making the video to publish this article but I felt that perhaps I should publish this now, since I haven't written anything for a while. Once the video is up and running I will post it to this article.