Playing mind games.

So lost in confusion,

Nothing to gain, but far too much to lose,

Disorientation in my brain,

This is a game I cannot win,

Your words are like poison,

Running through my veins,

It's pain I cannot bear,

You always seem to have the answers,

I don't understand,

I always search for comfort,

Inside intoxicating dreams,

It's my abuse that pushes you,

Away...

You ripped right through my walls,

I can't rebuild from this,

You have broken through,

I worked my way inside your head,

Just to push you far away... with these mind games,

But still you seem to stay,

Maybe I cause you so much pain,

To try and make this end,

And you hate my drunken rages,

I hurt you with my words,

Still you push right back,

Right back in to me,

I hurt myself to punish you,

And I hurt you just the same,

My wounds will bleed but they will fade,

Your mental scars will never even heal,

You ask me why I chastise you for loving me,

There is no answer I can find,

Maybe I'm just scared...

Afraid of what you bring,

Loving me, was never easy anyway,

Loving you is all I fear.