Through your eyes!

Words have no meaning, when my thoughts are of you,

You tell it like it is with your bitter sweet kiss,

Your lips speak of blissfulness,

But that isn't what the true message is,

You hide behind an image,

The real you no one knows,

But i can see beyond the smokescreen,

To a world beneath your eyes,

To know the world through your view,

Is to know of beauty and pain,

I see innocence lost,

Stolen in a vanity like game,

They say life is a game,

I intend not to partake,

For the lost souls who do,

Will be lost in their own disgrace,

How can they know what it feels like to played,

If they cannot see your heart as you bury down the pain!

Silence breaks through me, shivering at your thought, each memory taunting me, a constant reminder of how i once was so lost, time is a said healer, but i am plagued by your demons still, its been 6years, you affect me even now!

Painful perspective!

Do you ever wonder,

What it is like to see the world,

Through the darkness which clouds my eyes?

You believe something simple, could take away this hate,

Its not a task you're willing to take,

So why tell me to smile?

I can't pretend i am not dying inside,

Just to benefit your beliefs,

You have never questioned, why my words are cold,

I am not loved or in love,

So this anger takes hold,

If you knew the evil I've seen,

You would feel the same!

I'll never know anything but pain,

This is how i have been raised,

Awakened to this torture,

From a very young age,

Innocence stolen.

You say past is past,
But i disagree,

You never forget,

It stalks my every dream,

Turning something promising,

In to my next nightmare.

Constantly running from demons,

I can't face dealing with this,

It is easier to repress for the moment,

But this escape never lasts,

It will come back to hurt me again.

Tortured soul!

You intoxicate me,

My addiction is blinding me,

Your kind words feeding my every need,

Couldn't live without the inebriation you bring,

You tell me i am just a messed up girl,

How did you figure out my insanity is just a smokescreen,

To distract attention from what is truly haunting me,

Would you hate me for loving the release you bring?

You are my drug, i will never be free,

You think you know me, but you only know the person i pretend to be,

Care free and tough on the outside,

Inside it tears me apart.

So fragile and easily broken,

So used to the deception of mankind,

Unexpected was your loving nature,

It sparks my addiction,

Your sweetness and flavour!

No one else to save me from harming me,

Watching the blood as it drips,

It only hurts for just one minute,

But not having you will forever burn within my tortured soul,

This knife shall divert my attention,

To another pain i can focus upon,

While i am lost without your drug,

It still torments me to feel all i could have,

When it will never be!

What if i was to mention,

How my life completely revolves around you?

I am lost without your words,

I'd put my trust in no one else,

Would you hate for being in love with you?

You'll never know, how long i've wandered,

Around, waiting for someone like you,

Tortured is the soul, knowing you're not here for me to hold,

Everytime i see your face,

I am blinded by the sweetness in your grace,

Its an addiction to your kindhearted ways,

I've never felt such love,

You respect me for myself,

What will be, will be!

You question me,

So constantly, i do not know NOW!

Because i don't have the answers that you seek,

It drives you mad, how i can never plan ahead,

But i prefer the spur of the moment,

Impulse has always driven me,

You're need for confirmation, does not impress me in the least,

I will not change, just to suit your whiny needs,

I don't live life down on my knees,

Because i can be free,

So don't depend on me, because it does not change a thing?

Its still the exact same you're feeling,

Let it be now,

Abusive and cold, is that how you truly do see me?

Well then why do you still want this?

I know i can be a tad irrational, maybe i anger not so well,

But i have never hit below the belt,

I keep my insults to myself,

Oh how you're pushing me!

Don't try to tame me,

I am the original wild beast,

I'm not ashamed now,

You say to me:

"Where do you see this thing going?"

Questions like this keep me running for the hills,

Why can't you take life as it comes?

It could be love now,

If you'd just let it be,

See where this ride may lead!

I guess i cannot handle the bumps along the road,

Oh well i never anger well,

But i would never kiss and tell on you my friend,

So are you still pretending that you don't recognise my face?

I am crazy as it gets, random so it seems,

I have my secrets, but i'd never lie to you,

You are my secret love, hidden not so well,

And so you wonder how i fell,

I say you pushed me once again,

Now tell me would you take this well?

I hold my head because i can't seem to make sense,

My thoughts are lost, confusion causing so much pain.

Sorry, now

Did i forget your name?

Maybe you did not tell, or did i phase out all your words?

It doesn't fit in, cause it is too irrelevent,

But now you see, how you have driven me,

So messed up inside, i cannot tell a lie.

I'm not going anywhere, but i wouldn't even look your way,

If we ever meet,

I have

Would you write me a love song?

Crazy feelings, but it all seems so wrong,

What is it I'm missing?

Picture this fictitious vision.

Angry with love, hate and disgust,

Provoked by your lack of trust,

Faux duplicité!

Thought you'd see me crying, i won't end up dying,

Just cause you don't want me, doesn't mean i can't be,

Happiness does not come from what you bring, without your lies the world still spins!

I speak my mind, however nonsensical it all seems,

Sorry am i babbling incoherently? Again?

Foolish i know for trusting thee, wait if you must, if you please,

The show is over, there's nothing left for you to see,

I will not break, so won't you stop testing me!

Push me too far and see where this leads,

Oops i guess even black hearts can bleed!

Did i dig the blade in too deep?

Not sure why, or how this feels?

Your insides are rotted and filled with toxic slime,

Your venom, no longer capable of poisoning me.

Burned with desire, yet i saw through your lies,

Will you never learn? You can't play with fire.

Needing something more!

Made a deal with the devil, to fulfill my every wondrous fantasy,
Something new washes over me, were you the one i met last night in my sleep?
What do you want and what are your dreams?
Questioning every single little thing,
Details a must, but do you see?....

Where this madness may lead?

Don't break my heart or i will bleed, death is not something that i do seek,
Keep me safe, never forget how i have wasted my tears,
Before you came to rescue me, from my extremely selfish streak!


I can't cope with anything that seems realistic, constantly pushing every boundary.
Breaking the fabric of your reality, it is not mine to smash but nothing is stopping me,
Did i confuse this world as you perceive?

Take me away, but don't pretend you're in love with me!

Lies are hurtful, pain breaks each bond that we have made,

If you are true please stay with me, I'm crazy, insane, but I'll never leave!

You could be the one, so lets not mislead ourselves from what we know to be real

Loving insanity!

I see, i see now i can see, exactly how you are confusing me,

Taking control of my sanity,

Dragging me in to an envious dream,

Could this be, now could this be?

I don't understand, what is it you want from?

Breaking me down in to this perfect fantasy,

Do even notice me, i know you will never fall in love with a bad girl like me,

But do you ever notice me?

Screaming your name!

Inviting me in to this dream, illusive scene take over me.

Crazy i know as it may seem, but i won't behave when you're with me,

I can't do the sanity thing, you stole my heart and it is killing me,

Taking me down, so i can't breath again

Breaking in to the very core of me,

Do you care for the real me?

She is crazy or so it would seem,

Maybe you are not the best guy for me, but need is more than rationality,

Guilty am i of loving thee, yet again it is not simplicity,

Why are you invading me, personal space is something that i must need,

But you keep taking my breath away, falling so readily!

I guess afterall this, i can see, maybe its not such a bad thing, however it startles my fragile heart.

So see how you are affecting me, pursuing what can never be!

Don't feed the reaper!

Human behaviour is something often passed by, not really appreciated for all it explains - except for one source which knows its true value. The government or more to the point their Zionist puppet masters, daily monitor by any means possible what people do, talk about etc, this allows them to delve in to the minds of each individual studying their opinions, which allows them to understand how people think and react to each situation. It is possible to tell a lot about a person from just listening, reading, watching their exact moves, thoughts and feelings - what makes them tick, how they react to confrontation, how you can manipulate them to your way of thinking without any realisation on their part.


Almost everything we do is monitored, soon to be everything with the way surveillance is going and the new technology that keeps creeping up everywhere. Whatever TV programmes we watch, Internet activity we view, texts we send from mobiles, phone calls we make, things we buy (on card - visa electron etc), these kinds of things are all monitored including any social networks we partake in. The conversations we have show the traits of each individuals personality, on social networks such as face book many groups, quizzes, games and causes are there for entertainment purposes - but also because the groups you choose, the answers you provide and such can be broken down to understand each person taking them better, it makes it possible for our enemies to know us better than we know ourselves, they can find out from such things whether we fall for the propaganda, what we believe and think, our moves can be calculated, whether we are truly individual or just another controlled sheep, how to manipulate us, whether we able to expose what is really happening in the world and other such things.


I have put to the test my own theory, just to see how effective this idea is. It is a natural instinct to examine our surroundings, new people and territory and such it is how we form an appropriate judgement as to each situation - however many people have long forgotten their instincts and instead taken to allowing a TV to tell them how to think and what opinions to take on board. Children assess each situation from a very young age constantly testing things including boundaries, it is how they learn, this includes babies who use their strongest senses - touch, sound, sight, smell and taste to find out how things work - taste in particular as babies often suck on things as a way of learning what it is. Older children (toddlers) tend to observe the behaviour of adults and siblings around them to learn things - often something which goes unnoticed until the child works something which is considered complicated out within a matter of days or so. Children are a fine example of human behaviour at its greatest - they watch everything around them, soaking up life and experiences like a sponge. This is a sense which is dulled greatly over time through TV, school etc anything that doesn't appreciate the intelligence of a baby or child.

Emotions are a very powerful part of human behaviour and can often cloud the judgement of even the most rational of people. Anger for example - it can take very little effort to annoy someone, just through knowing how best to insult them such as by calling them ugly, fat, stupid etc - turning around such damage is much more fascinating subject however, when in a debate with someone often name calling can occur when one side (or sometimes both) of the argument have nothing constructive to add to the debate - when this happens the argument could end a slanging match, or it could end up with some kind of acceptance of each valid point - sometimes when this happens the insults are met with an apology depending on how each person involved reacts to the points made. Some people have great trouble accepting when they are wrong or when someone else makes a valid point - this could be because they do not want to believe they could be wrong and hold on to the illusion that their idea is right or because they simply will not listen to another valid point of view.


Every aspect of human behaviour is monitored including emotions (not just the above mentioned anger), it provides the Zionists with an advantage over us, our weaknesses can be discovered through such surveillance, how to manipulate us as well.


Another powerful emotion is fear - which can easily be manipulated. By installing a fear in a persons mind you can cause them to bend to your will causing them to submit. For example - the label racism - if a person does not like the views of another regarding people of a different race the label racist may be used as a way to install fear so that they will comply, this is a way to condition peoples thoughts and an attempt to gain some form of control over those who do not think like the herd, basically it is another form of witch trial - the label witch was used to silence anybody who didn't conform to the established order of society for example women who were involved in alternative medicine - which threatened the authority of the establishment, these people were called witches and killed. Another example is - illnesses (including diseases and such), cancer, AIDS, swine flu etc - swine flu in particular is an illness which no sooner had it been discovered than a vaccine was already being dished out, the fear of such an illness causes people to rush for a vaccine never questioning the illness or the dangers of an untested vaccine, in fact as modern medicine is so pushed upon the people no one ever questions whether it is safe putting their trust in the pharmaceutical companies because they are too afraid to question the actual medicine and whether there is a more effective type of alternative medicine.

As surveillance increases along with technology (most of which the public has no knowledge of) near enough our every movement and thought can be traced, this is a powerful weapon to the Zionists running the show -

By gathering information, in a very much forensic technique, psychological profiles can be created

By taking control of children by removing them from their parents and hading control to 'educators', constant examination can garner essential information as to personality and intellect

With the application of media and schooling, emotions are manipulated, and in this way people can be herded in any way the rulers see fit

Our sophisticated society is a slave society which uses surveillance to assess how best to control us, then uses the information gathered to provide us with what will keep us passive (or what will make us angry is so required). We are allowed to think we are free. By giving us bread and circuses the rulers keep the sheeple in line. No one rebels against freedom!

The whole system of the Zionist rulers depends on nobody questioning any aspect of the life they allow you to live, once you begin to question you will see that this apparently unstoppable march to global tyranny could be stopped in an instant if people would only refuse to cooperate, that is the key to our salvation. Realise and admit to yourself that what you consider to be your life is an illusion designed to stop you seeing the grim reality of the prison you live in. This will give you the much needed indignation which will spur you on to educate those around you - then together by refusing to play their games and be good little sheeple we can take back control of ourselves and their tyranny will disappear like the morning dew.

Malignant au pair!

Silence reminds me,

The times of deceit, twenty one years to be exact,

Did i do something? Say something?

Only a child at the time,

Should have known better as you said,

Is that why I'm always in the wrong?

Did you notice? My tears as they fall,

Do you worry? My whole world fell apart!

Head buried in my hands, weeping in to the dead night,

Oh this day i wake from this nightmarish hell,

Six of us together, Three boys and three girls,

I will be the black sheep, Because you will never see that you're wrong,

Do you see me now, here without the black clouds,

Did you hear me scream, Forgotten in this bleak existence.

It might seem quite selfish,

Forever i will know this,

You are wrong,

I am better than you!

Gateway to the spirit world!

Fall in to the darkness,

The shadow follows me,

Watching every move i make,

Now i know that evil has no face,

A simple aura is all i see,

It brings negativity,

But that doesn't worry me,

Like a dark cloud of depression,

I will sink in to my safe place, where no one can hunt me down.

Did i forget to close the door?

Will you come to hurt me some more?

Drag me down, down to your low level,

Are you content with your dimension?

In a world with no good intentions,

Lost are we in this abundance blue,

Do i dare be devoted to, my irrational pursuit of,

Something old, someones blue,

Someone borrowed, something new

Sorry i guess i really don't have a clue,

What is all this for anyway?

Just to have your delusions dashed,

Intrusion in your path.

I really need to break this crazy chain, of uneventful fixations.

Hounded by a foreboding spirit,

Provoking all the limits,

Taken out of context, dream oh dare i madness.....

A broken dream.

So tell me now, did you know?

Forgotten dreams, lost in these scenes,

We play over and again,

This pain never seems to end.

Where are we, inside this dream...

Down by the flowing stream,

Did this die, our simple way of life,

Could you ever fall in love again?

After all that suffering.

Blended in to a mere blissful form of ecstasy,

When you manage to forget these things,

One day you won't even acknowledge my existence........

Please refrain from remembering my name,

I am just a lost dream, playing these scenes

Over and again,

I must remember your once happy face.........

Lets end prejudice!

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Complications in communication!

Everything is black or white,

When we fight its always your way not mine,

What is normality? you see, it maybe you but its not for me,

I don't believe in labelling your irrational beliefs,

You take every single shred of peace, leave me with just this thread of my identity,

Don't hold me down this time, I'll shine brighter than all the stars this night,

You run before you can walk,

Taking bigger bites than can even fit your fork,

I'll let it go for now, don't frown you didn't win but then neither did i!

Natures design... criticized greatly!

Nature works in a mysterious way really, when we are ill we are given many little signs that show us what the problem is. And what is even more mysterious is the fact that all the cures for these problems are fresh from nature as well even though we are told that only artificial copies of nature or as is more commonly known pharmaceutical drugs are effective for curing illnesses. When you look through types of vegetables and fruits and find out what they are good for helping with the vegetables seem to look similar to which part of the body they benefit most i will provide a list of this at the end of the article.


Doctors these days dish out prescriptions for illnesses and other problems without fully examining the problem at hand, they may ask a few questions about the problem but will then look up the best means of pharmaceutical medicine to merely mask the symptoms of the problem, this method never cures the problem it only hides it making the patient maybe slightly more comfortable but instead of fixing whatever is wrong before it gets worse they give you something to cover the illness which doesn't cure you in any way so if your symptoms are related to a much more serious problem you won't know because the symptoms have been covered up.


Pharmaceutical companies pay doctors surgeries to use their drugs, each drug company does a presentation which consists of handing out freebies to the doctors surgeries in order to convince the surgeries to prescribe their drugs to the patients, not only this but doctors are given bonuses for prescribing these drugs and the more drugs they prescribe the bigger the bonus making doctors the biggest drug pushers on the planet but because these dangerous pharmaceutical medications are legal everyone thinks that it must be safe. These drugs do more harm than good often containing dangerous chemicals much like those found in vaccines that will actually make you more sick than you were to begin with and destroy the immune system in the meantime and besides which these medications do not help with the illness they were prescribed for, they are merely products which help pharmaceutical companies and doctors surgeries make more money.



Herbal remedies and Chinese medicines are greatly criticized by pharmaceutical companies and doctors but of course these companies not wanting to lose credibility and money will criticize remedies that threaten to ruin their financial gain which is at the expense of the general publics health, and naturally doctors who deal these drugs will back the pharmaceutical companies since they don't want to lose their bonuses, lower down this line of workers are chemists which dish out the drugs you are prescribed, they are brainwashed regularly with courses and such constantly forcing this propaganda on to them. In Chinese medicine the symptoms are clearly diagnosed through proper examination, which includes looking at the tongue to see the condition it is in (which provides information as to how bad the illness is by indicating how bad the internal damage is) and also through asking questions about lifestyle and diet which helps to fully asses the problem and find the suitable cure for it. Herbal remedies such as homeopathy and Bach flower remedies have been classed as nothing more than a placebo effect yet homeopathic remedies are suitable for animals and children and are proven to be beneficial to both, since children and animals would be unable to understand the concept of the placebo effect this proves that the whole idea is rather silly really.


Another idea greatly criticized is food as medicine which has been proven many times to be effective, eating well obviously will keep you in great health anyway but what helps cure and keep illnesses away is eating a very varied diet making sure you try new fruits, vegetables, seeds, pulses and beans which all will have individual benefits that help keep the body strong and healthy, when the body doesn't get the nutrition it needs it starts to weaken and become ill making it more susceptible to life threatening illnesses because the immune system doesn't have the defence built up to keep the body in good health.


This is a list of foods that i mentioned earlier which look like the body parts they benefit:



A sliced Carrot looks like the human eye. The pupil, iris and radiating lines look just like the human eye... And YES, science now shows carrots greatly enhance blood flow to and function of the eyes.

A Tomato has four chambers and is red. The heart has four chambers and is red. All of the researches shows tomatoes are loaded with lycopine and are indeed pure heart and blood food.

Grapes hang in a cluster that has the shape of the heart. Each grape looks like a blood cell and all of the research today shows grapes are also profound heart and blood vitalizing food.

A Walnut looks like a little brain, a left and right hemisphere, upper cerebrums and lower cerebellums. Even the wrinkles or folds on the nut are just like the neo-cortex. We now know walnuts help develop more than three (3) dozen neuron-transmitters for brain function.

Kidney Beans actually heal and help maintain kidney function and yes, they look exactly like the human kidneys.

Celery, Bok Choy, Rhubarb and many more look just like bones. These foods specifically target bone strength. Bones are 23% sodium and these foods are 23% sodium. If you don't have enough sodium in your diet, the body pulls it from the bones, thus making them weak. These foods replenish the skeletal needs of the body.

Avocados, Eggplant and Pears target the health and function of the womb and cervix of the female - they look just like these organs. Today's research shows that when a woman eats one avocado a week, it balances hormones, sheds unwanted birth weight, and prevents cervical cancers. And how profound is this? It takes exactly nine (9) months to grow an avocado from blossom to ripened fruit. There are over 14,000 photolytic chemical constituents of nutrition in each one of these foods (modern science has only studied and named about 141 of them).

Figs are full of seeds and hang in twos when they grow. Figs increase the mobility of male sperm and increase the numbers of Sperm as well to overcome male sterility.

Sweet Potatoes look like the pancreas and actually balance the glycemic index of diabetics.

Olives assist the health and function of the ovaries

Oranges , Grapefruits, and other Citrus fruits look just like the mammary glands of the female and actually assist the health of the breasts and the movement of lymph in and out of the breasts.

Onions look like the body's cells. Today's research shows onions help clear waste materials from all of the body cells. They even produce tears which wash the epithelial layers of the eyes. A working companion, Garlic, also helps eliminate waste materials and dangerous free radicals from the body.

We were left clues as to what foods would be helpful to which body parts, so when you look at your fruits and vegetables next think about the list i provided and see for yourself the clues that are there.