Masochist.

I don't want to listen to the happy songs,

For it might free me from this pain,

Don't you understand this?

I just want to feel this way forever,

I enjoy the urge to kill myself,

I am at peace when I'm hurting in life,

I bite myself to see how long it takes...

For me to taste the hate,

I cut myself just to watch it bleed,

To watch the blood dripping away,

You cannot take this away from me,

Masochistic tendencies have already taken hold,

Degrade me to gratify my soul,

Beat me the pleasure will take control,

I am your pain junkie,

You're my quick fix,

Domination is all you're good for,

I just want you because you can make me cry,

I'm at my best when I'm dying inside,

I'll hold my breath until I pass out,

You can cut me deep with a blunt blade,

All this pain brings me to life,

I don't need your happy pills,

Suffering is the drug I take,

It doesn't hurt, but I still feel each blade,

I never scar, but the wound never heals,

You never play, but you're always there,

You don't understand, but you will still partake.

Blood lust.

I'll drink this red wine,

It's like your blood is touching my lips,

Savour, the flavour of lost innocence,

Don't die too quickly,

Please don't kill this rush,

Your bloody kiss can't resurrect my soul,

You taste just like anger and death,

Do you feel me,

Am I touching you inside,

The darkest corners of your mind,

Evil, a black creature in the night,

I am not of this world,

I stay to taste the bleeding,

Your touch is making me feel so alive again,

The smell of death reminds me I'm still dead inside,

I feel you, as life slips away,

I see you gasping for each breath,

I will leave you to your muddy grave,

Until you wake,

To crave the same taste that stole your last breath.

Awaken to possession.

Forsaken, forgotten,

I am not what you expected me to be,

Anger, contempt for human life,

I am not what you want from me,

So leave me, break me down then let me be,

It's what you do to people like me,

Bleeding, screaming,

But you do not feel or hear me,

Dying, crying,

Why must you go on denying?

Waiting here won't keep you safe from me,

Why is everything you say a lie to me,

Cutting, stabbing,

I drag the blade to try and feel something,

Hurting, breaking,

To feel your neck snap would it cure me?

Angry inside and it's killing me,

You revive my senses,

Then destroy my life even more than to start with.

Awaken, possession,

You already own my soul,

Demons, dimension,

This world was not found as I left it.

Psychological destruction.

Do you ever think about what has passed?
Do you live each day with the same regrets,
Sometimes I could kick myself for the choices I've made,
I wake up and relive it each day,

Was there something I missed along the way,
A path I was destined to take?

Every time I get these thoughts it drives me insane,
Until an answer is sought,
Psychological destruction,
Always seeking long forgotten knowledge.

And it's driving me insane,
Can't see past today,
Wake to find my life is still a mess,

Do you ever wonder what could have been?
Think about what we'll never see,
I live inside my dreams,
My constant escape from a sad reality,

I feel almost as if life is passing me by,
I can't hold on to this crazy ride,
Did I lose my way somewhere along the way?
Where am I meant to be?
Is this life all it could be?

And if I asked you what we missed,
What would your response be?
Please don't run, I'm not looking for something,
I only seek an answer to end my misery.

Screaming, I cry out for my sanity,

Will these shrieks take away my tears,

Therapeutic reaction to my problems,

But is there anything to this method?

Punching walls, tearing clothes,

Breaking all you own,

Smashing up all you know,

Set fire to your life,

The flames are dancing like evil demons in my mind,

Man of my dreams...

All the Empty words I've always spoken,

Depressing thoughts I'm always thinking,

And the good days seem to go so quickly,

I'd rather stay inside my fantasy.

You're waiting inside the walls of my mind,

If you're not real why can I feel this?

My deep dreams are all I need,

Let me fall in to a dead sleep,

Let me be with you forever,

I don't want to wake up to reality,

When it seems so much less worth the effort,

You're making me feel so in love with you,

When you're breathing on my skin,

Stroking every inch of me,

And the cold night never freezes me,

Your warmth will keep me safe from its icy breeze,

Pure simplicity, nothing too extreme,

But I know that you will always be...

There to greet me every single dream.

Perfection in every fantasy,

Meet the man of my sweet dreams,

He will always carry me... far away,

Where the golden sunlight blends with the night sky,

And the moon dances on the sea,

Where rain tastes like little drops of honey,

And the mermaids sing angelic harmonies...

Please let me never wake from my wonderful dreams.

I miss you when I'm not sleeping,

Please let this long day soon end.

Broken romance.

A black cloud greets my window everyday,

Damp depression sleeps but never wakes,

I just want to be with you,

But you treat me like a fool,

I'll relentlessly follow you...

Torturing my soul,

Crying all alone,

Was it worth all the pain?

When everyday is exactly the same as yesterday.

The promises you break,

And lies are all you say,

Empty compliments you gave,

Did you never stop to think about me,

Was our love just a mistake?

I can't hate you still,

Even after all you put me through,

Foolish when it comes to you,

Don't let me wait,

Tell me who she is,

I can live life without you,

And I'd rather know the truth.