Hand in hand.

Do you know where you're going,
Do you care where I'm heading?
The opposite direction,

Did you not see me running,

Far away from this nightmare,

I must have been dreaming,

This couldn't be real,

It's all in my head,

All you said it's just stress taking over,

Leave me alone,

My head is unbalanced,

I can't seem to focus,

Don't know what I'm doing,

You're always complaining,

Nothing is ever the way that you wanted,

We're right back where we started,

Fighting until we're exhausted,

I'm falling I must have failed flying,

I don't know where I'm landing,

But it seems so far from you,

I'm not sure that you want that?

There are no instructions,

Love is unguided,

Right through wrong,

We've just got to ride it...

And when we're done fighting,

Will you be there to fix it,

Don't walk away like you don't want this,

We're just over excited,

I'm not easy to be with,

But you know you like it,

The challenge inspires us,

If love was easy,

Love was simply,

What would be the point in falling,

The greatest fights will bring us closer,

Let's just work together....

Playing mind games.

So lost in confusion,

Nothing to gain, but far too much to lose,

Disorientation in my brain,

This is a game I cannot win,

Your words are like poison,

Running through my veins,

It's pain I cannot bear,

You always seem to have the answers,

I don't understand,

I always search for comfort,

Inside intoxicating dreams,

It's my abuse that pushes you,

Away...

You ripped right through my walls,

I can't rebuild from this,

You have broken through,

I worked my way inside your head,

Just to push you far away... with these mind games,

But still you seem to stay,

Maybe I cause you so much pain,

To try and make this end,

And you hate my drunken rages,

I hurt you with my words,

Still you push right back,

Right back in to me,

I hurt myself to punish you,

And I hurt you just the same,

My wounds will bleed but they will fade,

Your mental scars will never even heal,

You ask me why I chastise you for loving me,

There is no answer I can find,

Maybe I'm just scared...

Afraid of what you bring,

Loving me, was never easy anyway,

Loving you is all I fear.

My day begins and ends with thoughts of you,

When my sky is grey you brighten the day,

Even in this rain my feelings remain postive,

Thunderstorms

My pedastal is broken I have fallen off,

Since you walked away from me I cannot hold on,

Falling so hopelessly,

Coping so pathetically,





You can see the truth behind the lies,

And you sense the sadness hidden by a smile,



Even my eyes cannot deny,

You know me better than I even know myself,

I don't understand it, this is crazy,

But even so I will go with it...



And hidden depths remain touched by you,

You feel beyond what I expose,

You know that it is just my war paint you see,

You're breaking through in to the real me,





I am afraid of all you promise me,

The sparkle in your eyes



You understand I speak my mind,

And my words often have another meaning,

Playing mind games,

I'll hurt you now,

I'll break you down,

I'm hunting you,

My screams are the only sound,

You fear what

You're always breathing down my neck,

Do you know you suffocate me?

Drowning me with your aggression,

Abusing me with your obsession...

Intoxication.

You make me cry,
I'm slowly dying on the inside,
There's a darkness in your eyes,
So beautiful a loss you find,

I'll punish myself for loving you,
With nothing inside torture doesn't break through,
Emptiness is all I feel,
A wound you left will never heal,

The wine tastes bitter sweet to me,
It has the potential promise I need to hear,
You deny me the will to live,
For this I drink myself to death,
It is my sorrow you'll regret,
Never hold out thy hand to me,
I will deny thy help to save my soul,
Already lost, far gone, exposed,

Intoxicate my mind tonight,
It is thy drink I crave for now,

You burn me,

I enjoy the pain to some extent,

But I hate your mind games,

You break me,

I spend forever trying to fix these shattered pieces,

And I drink because I crave your taste,

I enjoy your sweet intoxication washing over me,

Your drug like feeling consumes me,

I enjoy the lack of consciousness,

Awareness is not all it seems,

You scare me,

Beaten down by all you bring,

You lie to me,

Behind the beauty of your eyes,

But they're still lies,

You're still not mine!