This day is slowly killing me,

Each moment is like another blade,

I breath again death won't take this pain,

No one understands the silence is what I crave,

It's n

From my heart...

The darkness clouds my mind,

Day fades to night,

The grey clouds follow me around,

Like they are bound to my depressive mood,

You break my heart with all you say,

Then you put it back together again,

You're so right,

Your words are right,

That's why we fight,

It's all I want,

Yet it is out of reach,

You're too far from me,

Come closer please let me touch you,

Your words are strong,

You have no doubt,

I'm weakened by your confidence,

In everything you do,

I love everything you do,

You never quit,

Too determined,

I'm pushing you away still,

I think you enjoy the difficulties,

I'm not easy to figure out,

That's what you like,

You know I'm right,

You've cracked my wall,

It's tumbling down,

You see the darkness inside,

Don't run and hide,

I'll let you in,

Just be my light,

You're far too strong,

It unnerves me,

I'm not used to your sweetness or your strengh,

You made me hide,

I tried too hard to be what you were looking for,

What are you looking for?

I can be whatever you want,

Am I what you want?

Come quickly please,

Waiting is killing me,

Don't ever turn away,

You know you're all I need,

Your kiss is what I need,

Just love me please,

Be mine just be with me!

You make me cry,
I'm slowly dying on the inside,
Wishing I could see beyond the glimmer of your eyes,
They tell me lies,

Your voice so soft your words so sweet,
Beautiful to me,
Your lips speak of wondrous things,
Your words are lies,

All you promised will never happen,

Your face is like a vision to me,

You make me cry,

I'm slowly dying on the inside,

Wishing I could see beyond the glimmer of your eyes,

They tell me lies,

Don't tell me lies,

I'm falling faster than I can control,

You won't catch me I'm already gone,

You made me smile,

For the first time in years...

I'm still bleeding,

You complicate my life,

With the questions in your mind,

The words you speak are sweet,

Beautiful to me,

Your mouth it tells me lies,

Don't tell me lies...

I'm slowly dying on the inside,

We're floating here,

This moment is pleasant,

Don't break this silence,

Stop thinking now,

I don't need to hear it again,

Like a knife your words cut right through me,

My heart bleeds for you,

You're telling me one thing,

I read between the lines,

Your words are lies,

Just say what is on your mind tonight,

Don't hide behind condescending demeanor,

Tell me what you want,

I'll give it all,

Just tell me the truth.

Seeking pain,

Awaiting the light,

At the end of every tunnel darkness is all I find,

Breaking through the wall you've built up,

You're blocking my love again,

Your presence here weakens me,

You're always right it unnerves me,

I'm afraid of your confidence,

What you bring is uncertainty,

Closer to me.

If I hold my tongue,

My silence is only to please you,

Try to keep you sweet so,

Maybe you'll eventually try to see beyond the smoke screen,

That I'm presenting you with,

It's how I hide my feelings,

To keep me from harming me,

Will you smash the walls I've built around myself,

If it's my heart you're seeking,

Maybe that's the way to go,

But just promise me this one thing,

Even when I push you far away with my difficult phases,

Don't ever leave me alone here,

To deal with all the pain...

I create my own distractions,

Look for faults that don't exist,

It's a coping mechanism,

To avoid a broken heart further down the line...

I try to make an effort,

Regardless of the consequences,

Mindlessly climbing obstacles in my path,

It leads me straight back to these complications,

And I don't seem to mind them,

The reward seems to defeat the difficulties.

You're trying to convince me,

Life can be worth living,

When there is just one thing...

That helps to keep me smiling,

You're pushing closer to me,

I turn and run away,

Hiding from the confusion that you bring me,

I'm trying to hurt you to make you go away,

Don't understand what you see,

In someone as crazy as me,

You're moving closer still,

I'll keep pushing you far away with my insanity,

Why don't you leave me,

Not so sure I understand this?

If you decide to pursue this,

Just remember that I'll push back,

To protect my fragile heart from you,

If you can push beyond this,

Maybe we could be...!

Diabolically deceptive,
Emotively unresponsive,

Ignorance would be bliss,

But I cannot escape this mentality,

Stuck in a world of brutality,

You make me feel pathetic,

A broken shell of my old self,

Cowered in a corner,

Crying in to my hands,

The stress is far too much...

Searching for an answer,

It doesn't come in pill form,

Mores the pity still,

I rely upon the feeling that citalopram can give me,

When I'm feeling blue.