The confusion of it all!

All your words are hazy,
I'm trying to take an interest,
But it matters not me,
We come from different backgrounds,
We live in different worlds.

Do we have anything in common?
Is this just a phase,
I don't know or understand you,
But yet I still trust you far more than I can say,

We'll try to come together,
See what happens then,

You tell me that you're falling,
Well I've already fallen,
Trying to pick myself up again,
You're making me insane now,
But I seem to enjoy the pain of never seeing your face,

I try to tell you not to worry,
We will be alright,
Got to roll with all the punches,
Take one day at a time.

Don't over analyse this,
You're creating your own complexities,
I'll not suffocate you,

Won't tell you how to live.

Words have little meaning,

But they mean so much to me,

I'm trying to explain to you,

I doubt you will understand....

When you're not around I'm losing my mind,

I go insane,

Whenever you're talking to me I feel so close to you...

This situation is crazy,

My mind is over thinking,

And all I want to say is I'm so in love with you,

I just want to get so close to you.

I try to tell you not to worry,

We will be alright,

Got to roll with all the punches,

Take one day at a time.

Don't over analyse this,

You're creating your own complexities,

Diabolically deceptive,

Emotively unresponsive,

You make me feel pathetic,

When you treat me like this...

If I say let's run away together,

Would you come just to be with me,

Far from the evil of this lonely place,

Let's see where the road may end,

If I speak your name when you're not around,

Will you know that I need you now?

Can you read my mind when I need you to,

I bleed.

You stole my sparkle once again,
My eyes gaze vacantly now,
I cut myself to take revenge on you,
My thoughts consist of suicidal tendencies,
There's not one answer to this pain,

I fell so far,
You broke my heart,
I tried to run,
Before I could even walk,

Because of you...
My mind is chained,
My heart still breaks,
I tried to leave but was drawn back in to this despondency.

And I realise,
Until the end of my days,

You will forever haunt me,
I will never be free of this tormenting residence,

My living hell,
You drag me down,
I'm fighting for breath,
But I will drown inside these flames...

My abyss awaits,

Do not delay your ever fierce contempt for me,

You asked me once,

And why yes I do bleed!

obstreperous mind...

The voices in my mind are never ending,

No silence, no rest,

A constant racket in head,

No one voice states the same,

Crazy endless stupidity,

Crowded by such a pretty form of insanity,

The screaming begins to deafen me,

You make me laugh, you make me cry,

I smile outside, Inside I die,

I'm always dreaming but I never sleep,

A restless soul with little energy,

You drain me of every positive part of me.

All the whispers come at once,

I don't understand what these voices want,

Why won't you leave my mind today?

You're talking over each other,

And all at once you scream my name,

What would it take for you to get out of my head,

Leave me to scrape back all of my mind that is left.

Love is...?

I love you, I hate you,

I need you, but I don't want to,

Let's leave this all behind,

I'm going out of my mind over you!

My life has been turned upside down,

Don't waste my time again.

I cry, you say it's alright,

We fell, but I am still falling for you,

You see the light,

I'm standing in the darkness that you left me with!

I think about you all the time,

You don't even know I'm alive...

If I tell you I love you, will you leave me tonight?

It's raining in the vision of my mind,

I am alone, In a crowded place,

I see your haunting face,

Tell me what do you see of me?

Because I thought I heard you say you love me too?!

Bleak existence...

Each lesson I've learnt,

All the knowledge I have gained,

For that I owe you so much,

The pain you brought,

In life it taught me to better protect my trusting heart,

I'm not over it yet,

It's still burns inside,

But the prescription drugs are clearing my mind,

I still feel your breath on the back of my neck,

Hear your voice calling my name,

See your face waiting for me in the rain...

You were my hero once,

You rescued me from living a lie,

But then you once again broke me down,

In to this pitiful life!