Its not worth denying, the truth will come calling,

I know now, you were never really there,

Even when i was in despair,

Its one thing to knock my confidence in you,

But another to let my daughter down,

When we did so much for you and yours.

I won't wait for the dark clouds,

Rain will fall, but i'll still dance,

If it means so much to you,

Would you walk in the snow, to come to me?

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So tell me, how would you feel if this was you?

Avoided, to deny the rights of friends,

Each time it is your turn, your never there,

So how can you expect what you so readily forget?

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Tears for you!

It did not help to wash to the tears from my face,

They still fall down,

When each insult reminds me of my pain,

Didn't you realize harsh words never leave,

A tortured soul will forever know.

You pretend to be attentive outside,

Inside you are heartless towards me,

You should have tried,

My tears i have cried for you,

Bitterness is all we know,

It never changes,

But the anger grows.

Were you looking for the answer?

I cannot mention, what i do not know,

You ask me to fix,

The things i never break.

I'll close my eyes, but i will not sleep,

I may dream of better things,

But it always ends,

Then we are back where we started again.

From hell.

I'm right here, do you see me?

Can you feel me, I'm still breathing,

Not yet dead,

I called to you, from the other side

Do you hear me?

Did you notice, i was broken anyway

Does anyone care?

Is anyone even there?

Everything i said, i may have meant it,

But only at that time,

So if i say why, would you hurt me?

Again.

I'm still here, i never really left,

Not quite a ghost,

But still invisible to you,

Its not my presence that offends,

It is all the memories,

And guilt that brings,

There's a place where my lost dreams died,

Find me there, i am lost inside,

You could have saved me,

It was too late to save myself,

I jumped too fast, because my heart was broken.

Do not believe i am dead,

My heart didn't stop beating,

Though shattered, it can still bleed,

Though broken i can still mend.

Even in death i feel your pain.

Is this the only escape?

Damaged by the hate you bring,

I feel your evil presence inside of me,

Like a dark cloud i am haunted by this curse,

Following me even in my sleep,

In the nightmares i am more awake.

In my shattered existence, there is one escape,

Distracting myself, with a new found pain,

As the blade digs through, i feel my release,

If i went too far this time, do not save me,

In death i am truly free.

An apology cannot take this hurt from me,

It's not OK, i feel so crazy,

Bruises may heal,

But your words cut so deep.

I am fragile inside,
Easily convinced of each new failure you find,

I make mistakes, i do not deny,

But you are without sin,

Though the example you set, is all i can see.

I cannot keep up with all your new rules,

I cannot live my life, for fear of your disapproval,

So live in your double standard,

If it pleases you, i will never be right,

So just leave me this way,

Crying in to my hands,

I still fight to keep back each tear,

I will not give you the satisfaction,

Of enjoying all you did.

I have now found the way,

It became clear while you were beating me,

Its either you or me,

The escape is sweet, when your blood drips on to me.

Do you see the sadness in my eyes,

Beaten down by each of your lies,

Yet you still ask me how i am?

I am feeling blue,

Its all down to you.

I am not afraid,

When you threaten me,

Whatever you do to me, i will do to you,

Don't tell me not to speak,

I will never be silenced.

If you